"I want to get away, I wanna fly away...."
right now I'm sitting in the library. It's fourth period on a wednesday and I just can't wait to get out of here. We have only twenty school days left, and even though I say "only" its WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too long. I hate this place. High school is so dumb, and I just want to get out. I've been ready to leave since the first time I walked in the school doors. I'm just tired of all the pointless drama shit. It's sad. Oh well. haha. I'm so tired right now. I just closed my eyes and almost fell asleep at the computer desk. haha. Maybe I should try that thing that they call sleep...but sleep can be overrated. :p. But lately my body hasnt let me sleep more than six hours. it's so weird, and no matter how hard I try, I still can't sleep. hmmm....interesting.
OoOoOoOoOo lunch is next. I'm sooooooooo hungry. Food..yummy! GET IN MY BELLY! hahaha. I'm so odd. but that's ok :)
Tomorrow I have to go to the doctors, yuck. They're going to be checking out my stomache because it's soooooo messed up. I've gotten to the point where I'm scared to eat since I get stomache aches so much. It's no fun. But maybe they can help me. My mom thinks it also may be partly due to anxiety. Maybe ulcers(or however you spell it) or something. So...soon I'm going to be going to therapy too, for both anxiety and depression. FUN FUN! not. oh well. maybe they can help me. My mom seems to think I may have an anxiety disorder. and other people think i may have a chemical imbalance, i think it may be a little of both. but hey...maybe after i go to the doctors and therapy I'll finally be truly happy again. I guess it can't hurt, right?
I may be getting a job at a day care this summer. Kristin's friend, Kate, called last night and asked her if I was still looking for a job. She knows that I'm going into early childhood and her boss at the day care is looking for high school students to work there, so she gave her boss my number and her boss will probably call me sometime today or tomorrow. The place is in Southboro, and it's only fifteen minutes away, so I think it would be good for me. It'll probably be a lot of fun and it'll help me prepare for becoming a preschool teacher. I'll also be getting paid for doing something I love. YAY! a three-for-one deal! that's always fun!!! :)
I can't wait till the school day is over today. I get to see dave right after school, which I am very happy about. I could use a "good Dave hug" :) haha. He's supported me through a lot lately. I honestly don't think I'd be around right now if it weren't for him...as scary as that sounds. For the past few months he has supported me through whatever I was going through. Even when I didn't want to talk, he comforted me, understanding how I've been feeling, and listening to me whenever I needed to talk. He understands me more than I think I understand myself. He knows what I'm going through and no matter what, he doesnt run away, he stays with me and comforts me through even the hardest days when I don't think I can go on anymore.
Dave-I don't know where I'd be with out you, thank you for caring so much and supporting me. I love you.
Emilie- I miss you so much! I Can't wait to see you soon! I love you!
Anyways...the period is VERY close to being over so I gotta go now. LATER :p
OoOoOoOoOo lunch is next. I'm sooooooooo hungry. Food..yummy! GET IN MY BELLY! hahaha. I'm so odd. but that's ok :)
Tomorrow I have to go to the doctors, yuck. They're going to be checking out my stomache because it's soooooo messed up. I've gotten to the point where I'm scared to eat since I get stomache aches so much. It's no fun. But maybe they can help me. My mom thinks it also may be partly due to anxiety. Maybe ulcers(or however you spell it) or something. So...soon I'm going to be going to therapy too, for both anxiety and depression. FUN FUN! not. oh well. maybe they can help me. My mom seems to think I may have an anxiety disorder. and other people think i may have a chemical imbalance, i think it may be a little of both. but hey...maybe after i go to the doctors and therapy I'll finally be truly happy again. I guess it can't hurt, right?
I may be getting a job at a day care this summer. Kristin's friend, Kate, called last night and asked her if I was still looking for a job. She knows that I'm going into early childhood and her boss at the day care is looking for high school students to work there, so she gave her boss my number and her boss will probably call me sometime today or tomorrow. The place is in Southboro, and it's only fifteen minutes away, so I think it would be good for me. It'll probably be a lot of fun and it'll help me prepare for becoming a preschool teacher. I'll also be getting paid for doing something I love. YAY! a three-for-one deal! that's always fun!!! :)
I can't wait till the school day is over today. I get to see dave right after school, which I am very happy about. I could use a "good Dave hug" :) haha. He's supported me through a lot lately. I honestly don't think I'd be around right now if it weren't for him...as scary as that sounds. For the past few months he has supported me through whatever I was going through. Even when I didn't want to talk, he comforted me, understanding how I've been feeling, and listening to me whenever I needed to talk. He understands me more than I think I understand myself. He knows what I'm going through and no matter what, he doesnt run away, he stays with me and comforts me through even the hardest days when I don't think I can go on anymore.
Dave-I don't know where I'd be with out you, thank you for caring so much and supporting me. I love you.
Emilie- I miss you so much! I Can't wait to see you soon! I love you!
Anyways...the period is VERY close to being over so I gotta go now. LATER :p