Happy 20th Kels! (tomorrow) and happy bday mommy (today)

[unseen_eyes]

Wow ok so me and Tara had an awesome friday night. Went to twisted then over to her place, but I had to drop wes off at home so she was all over me in the car it was funny until i had to tell her to stop so i could drive. Then when we got to her place she couldnt even wait till we got into the elevator haha and from there i was a totally awesome fucking night. I didnt even leave till like 630pm the next day and that was only to go get wes from work. Then we went to twisted again last night but Tara left around the same time as we had to leave cuz she wasnt feeling well. The reason for that was she had spent the past 3 days stoned and then never ate a single thing that day for which i should smack her haha. We had an unresolved conversation and I miss her and was horny so that made me all sad and shit. Now the reason we had to leave at the end of the night was cuz Kels had made herself sick. It was her birthday celebration and it was just gonna be the 3 of us until Kayla ended up coming along. So kels went and picked her up and i grabbed wes and we met at kels's place where they predrank. Kayla ended up leaving twisted when we werent looking and then we noticed and were looking for her for like a full hour or more. She even turned her phone off and never told us she was leaving or nothing. Well kels was so sad and drunk he was in a horrible state lets say. The weirdest part of the night for sure was me and kelsey kissing 3 times and me and wes twice. For sure. Kels didnt like me kissing her and wes says im good haha it was crazy XD

After I dropped them off at kelseys place i went home and drank myself stupid. I was gonna cut to relieve myself, had it all sitting out and prepared and everything. Everything i would need. I passed out. Im happy that i did but then again im sad cuz i did. I wanted to cut, i almost needed to cut. I still have all that shit building up inside i need relief and i just dont know how to get it. Shit this sucks.