Lovelovelove. :) <3
Once upon a time I met an amazing girl almost a year ago who I fell in love with hours after meeting her. She was, literally, my dream girl. Everything I'd ever wanted in someone, well, here she was. But she was real. And I was in love with her. :) The only girl I've ever been in love with.
This wasn't Becca, by the way, who 'she loves me she loves me not' is about, Becca, well, she was pretty much just a big crush I had, but this is so different, and I am over her. Anyway.
Once upon a time it turned out that my dream girl was 100% straight- big surprise- and, as usual, yet again, my heart, hopes and dreams were all shattered into a zillion tiny sad little pieces. cliche, it happens to all us homosexual girls, hopefully someone understands how much this can really, really hurt.
But we kept seeing each other all the time, even though she was a year younger and went to a different school, and every time I saw her, afterwards I'd cry myself to sleep and think about... very negative things.
As of two days ago, I hadn't seen her in six months, and had actually, really, finally gotten over her completely. I wasn't thinking about her anymore. I'd just accepted that my chances with her were pretty much hopeless.
Last night she called me and asked me to go to the movies with her. My heart nearly stopped.
I almost said no just because I knew how long it had taken me to get over her and I didn't want to start liking her again and just get crushed again and feel so emo again and everything. But I did, and ohmyfuckingshit, I am SO glad I did.
Turns out, in those six months I haven't seen or thought about her, she was questioning, then decided she was bi, dated a girl, the girl moved to Colorado, and now she's single, and ohmyshit, I STILL can't believe she's bisexual and all my hopes and dreams actually do have a chance.
I got really close to asking her out last night, too, but long story short the only chances I had were when we were in the bathroom and when her mom was right there. Hahahahaha. But anyway. I'm completely on top of the world right now. I can't believe any of this has happened and fuck, I MISS HER SO MUCH.
I can't wait to see her again, once we get to spend a little more time together, maybe I'll invite her over for a sleepover, then maybe I'll ask her to be my girlfriend. :)
And by the way, I found where I saved the half of the first chapter of Broken in the Snow that I've been trying to find for ages, and the chapter is being posted in 5-10 minutes from now.
This wasn't Becca, by the way, who 'she loves me she loves me not' is about, Becca, well, she was pretty much just a big crush I had, but this is so different, and I am over her. Anyway.
Once upon a time it turned out that my dream girl was 100% straight- big surprise- and, as usual, yet again, my heart, hopes and dreams were all shattered into a zillion tiny sad little pieces. cliche, it happens to all us homosexual girls, hopefully someone understands how much this can really, really hurt.
But we kept seeing each other all the time, even though she was a year younger and went to a different school, and every time I saw her, afterwards I'd cry myself to sleep and think about... very negative things.
As of two days ago, I hadn't seen her in six months, and had actually, really, finally gotten over her completely. I wasn't thinking about her anymore. I'd just accepted that my chances with her were pretty much hopeless.
Last night she called me and asked me to go to the movies with her. My heart nearly stopped.
I almost said no just because I knew how long it had taken me to get over her and I didn't want to start liking her again and just get crushed again and feel so emo again and everything. But I did, and ohmyfuckingshit, I am SO glad I did.
Turns out, in those six months I haven't seen or thought about her, she was questioning, then decided she was bi, dated a girl, the girl moved to Colorado, and now she's single, and ohmyshit, I STILL can't believe she's bisexual and all my hopes and dreams actually do have a chance.
I got really close to asking her out last night, too, but long story short the only chances I had were when we were in the bathroom and when her mom was right there. Hahahahaha. But anyway. I'm completely on top of the world right now. I can't believe any of this has happened and fuck, I MISS HER SO MUCH.
I can't wait to see her again, once we get to spend a little more time together, maybe I'll invite her over for a sleepover, then maybe I'll ask her to be my girlfriend. :)
And by the way, I found where I saved the half of the first chapter of Broken in the Snow that I've been trying to find for ages, and the chapter is being posted in 5-10 minutes from now.