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I have fallen in love.
Not with a person or a thing, but with people. Lately, i've seen nothing but the goodness in others. I find it difficult to say a single negative word. This place is so full of people who really genuinely care. People with real smiles. Who aren't afraid to make eye contact. I sit in a park and wait to make friends, because I know it will happen. A six year old boy tells me about his trips to ancient egypt and i give my number to a girl my age from Virginia, who is moving to Asheville and doesn't know anybody. I don't know how this happens. All I do is is smile, maybe my eyes are so full of hope that willingness for conversation that it's hard to pass it by. Lately, i've been practicing paying it forward. A man on the side of the road with a "hungry and homeless" sign looks to the point of tears. I buy him a meatball sub. I hope he wasn't a vegetarian, but i guess when you're starving, you can't be picky.
School ends in 2 weeks and I am not looking forward to it. So many amazing people aren't coming back next year and we're so busy around here that it's near impossible to spend enough time with them. I won't be home for very long this summer...sitting still just does not feel like a possibility! A few weeks at home, a week on the road to see Animal Collective (x2), Bon Iver, possibly Grizzly Bear, TV on the Radio, and Band of Horses (I chose that instead of Bonarroo---tough decision, but wayy less money), then New York, then Working at Camp for four weeks, then 10 days in Spain at my friends families villa then staying in hostels. Um, yay?!
I AM SO AWARE OF HOW LUCKY I AM. Like, it makes my heart ache a little bit.
I wish that I could bottle up my feelings and hand them out. Give people a little taste, and get a taste of them in return.