I wanna say somethin cause it hurts bad...

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I really don't got a lot of friends so I am going to write this down.First I wanna blame myself... for the things I do but I am a human and a fuck up. Laura I want to say something to you, I mean I am never a trusting person of anyone maybe cause I been lied to alot by alot of people and I get mad because its hard for me to trust someone and you don't see that. You know I wish I some kinda magic power to tell when people are lying but I don't and me being dumb doesn't help the fact and its very hard for me to tell when people are telling the truth. Also I know I lie alot and I'll tell you why I do it cause i want to look good to you and show you that I am worth somethin more than the peice of shit i really am. I want to wish you Good luck on whatever you decide to do with the rest of your life.I guess it is really better that we are broken up since I am leaving for the navy but to tell you the truth I never signed any papers really the whole going to the navy thing depends on wether or not I like college this summer.If you still want to talk or go out call me please and tell me, If not leave me a message here and tell me never to talk to you again and I won't. I am really sorry if I wasn't a good boyfriend I never claimed to be the first night we talked I told you I am a dumbass.

Also, if you are seeing another person just let me know for god sakes.let me know so I can get on with my life and know that I am not just wasting my time.

I wanna say this also, really don't listen to me I'm very emotional right now and do things before thinking.

The Dumbass,
Farmer