Lame Day. Haven't Had One in a While.
Last night's party was pretty kickass. That's all I'll say about that.
Woke up today at 7 I think.. I haven't woken up early on a Saturday in a very long time. The strange thing is that I wasn't tired at all, as a matter of fact, I was entirely rejuvenated.
I guess this means my body is really fucked up when I feel better having had 6 hours of sleep w/ lots of alcohol in me than when I get 8 hours of sleep w/ no alcohol.
I got another lecture today from my parents... I don't know what it was about. They like teaming up on me... when one starts, the other will start yelling about something that I did a long time ago.. or something I haven't been doing. This time they came up with a new threat though.. I think it was to kick me out of the house. After last night, that freedom doesn't sound too bad right now. But of course.. at the moment that's only a dream I can have..
The rest of the day wasn't too bad... went to some stores with the Joes and picked up 2 cd's at Best Buy...
Guess it all went downhill when I decided to go to the Honor Band thing tonight. Don't get me wrong.. everyone that was in it was awesome. Right as I walked in the door I saw Amanda... it had been a while since I had seen her... and that was the first time I saw her with her boyfriend.
=(
Somehow an equal sign and a left parentheses can't quite express how I felt... but I guess that's about all I can do with Lj. It was depressing... I kept thinking about those 2 months I was infatuated with her... ugh. I felt so alone.
It was horrible... there was even a split second where I felt like crying... but would it have made it better? Would it have brought me back to those months and changed how she felt about me? No... so alone
Oh well... I can't control how she feels. I've accepted that maybe we just weren't meant to be. That did put a bit of a damper on the evening though. After the band had finished performing I went to go say hi to Katie. She said something about me being a weird Asian... which hurt a lot more than it should have. It was a little unexpected coming from her, she's usually pretty nice to me. I felt very lame because of that. I started thinking about how I love making people laugh.. but I guess in reality they're probably just laughing at some idiot making a fool out of himself. Thanks Katie. You were great tonight by the way.
But of course, there's always ways for things to be worse. I could just happen to be standing next to a couple from McQ that are happily in love and watch them embrace each other.
I was really feeling like shit at that point. I actually wanted to go home and just start doing HW... but then I figured hey, if me and Joe are bored.. maybe lil Joe will be bored too. So we drove all the way to his house and went in to talk for a while.
Then my best friend kicked us out.
I guess that's enough for my lame day... didn't get much done except for feeling lonely, embarrassed, and unwanted.
-Jc
Woke up today at 7 I think.. I haven't woken up early on a Saturday in a very long time. The strange thing is that I wasn't tired at all, as a matter of fact, I was entirely rejuvenated.
I guess this means my body is really fucked up when I feel better having had 6 hours of sleep w/ lots of alcohol in me than when I get 8 hours of sleep w/ no alcohol.
I got another lecture today from my parents... I don't know what it was about. They like teaming up on me... when one starts, the other will start yelling about something that I did a long time ago.. or something I haven't been doing. This time they came up with a new threat though.. I think it was to kick me out of the house. After last night, that freedom doesn't sound too bad right now. But of course.. at the moment that's only a dream I can have..
The rest of the day wasn't too bad... went to some stores with the Joes and picked up 2 cd's at Best Buy...
Guess it all went downhill when I decided to go to the Honor Band thing tonight. Don't get me wrong.. everyone that was in it was awesome. Right as I walked in the door I saw Amanda... it had been a while since I had seen her... and that was the first time I saw her with her boyfriend.
=(
Somehow an equal sign and a left parentheses can't quite express how I felt... but I guess that's about all I can do with Lj. It was depressing... I kept thinking about those 2 months I was infatuated with her... ugh. I felt so alone.
It was horrible... there was even a split second where I felt like crying... but would it have made it better? Would it have brought me back to those months and changed how she felt about me? No... so alone
Oh well... I can't control how she feels. I've accepted that maybe we just weren't meant to be. That did put a bit of a damper on the evening though. After the band had finished performing I went to go say hi to Katie. She said something about me being a weird Asian... which hurt a lot more than it should have. It was a little unexpected coming from her, she's usually pretty nice to me. I felt very lame because of that. I started thinking about how I love making people laugh.. but I guess in reality they're probably just laughing at some idiot making a fool out of himself. Thanks Katie. You were great tonight by the way.
But of course, there's always ways for things to be worse. I could just happen to be standing next to a couple from McQ that are happily in love and watch them embrace each other.
I was really feeling like shit at that point. I actually wanted to go home and just start doing HW... but then I figured hey, if me and Joe are bored.. maybe lil Joe will be bored too. So we drove all the way to his house and went in to talk for a while.
Then my best friend kicked us out.
I guess that's enough for my lame day... didn't get much done except for feeling lonely, embarrassed, and unwanted.
-Jc