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Its odd....I can find things that give me some shard of happyness every so often, but it always gets lost when ever I look at the whole image of my life. Since I wasn't able to get the much needed loan to fix my car, all of my money that I'm earning will go away for a while. This in turn makes me unhappy. Which is just another step in this long dance of depression. I hate this feeling so much and I'm beginning to doubt if there really is someting to gain from all of this.