Block vs Circle
For the past thirty minutes I have sat here staring at inanimate objects hoping that they would somehow jump to life or trigger something in my brain that would let my hand write whatever it was the page was supposed to have danced itself into. The last fifteen of these minutes I have been thinking less about actually solving the problem and more about how effective a solution breaking something in my immediate vicinity would end up being. I don't understand what isn't firing in my head right now, but I have this growling feeling that something is broken. I hate this feeling of panic and inability to function that I am currently sitting in. I could stare at these pages, read, reread, test, and test and test, and none of it would make me understand or not feel like this. I hate this feeling and everything about it. I hate this feeling and it is how I feel for a majority of each day.