Ben / James - Loving You For The First Time
Title: Loving You For The First Time
Original Pairing : Duncan James (Ben) / James Walker
Author: unpublicguy
Word Count: 4,527
Song : Duncan James - Amazed
Warning : It's involving m/m bed scene.
Disclaimer : No matter how hot this story is, it's all fiction guys. So don't sue me or anything. ~
Character Definition:
Duncan James (Ben)
Height : 5'11
Eyes : Baby blue
Hair : Black
James Walker
Height : 5'7
Eyes : Chocolate brown
Hair : Black
A/N2 : The inspiration of this story is been took after the big night of Ben proposing to James at Ben's prom night
[ click here to read Ben's proposing to James]
Summary : James invite Ben to spent the entire weekends at his house because his parent was away for two days. How they were going to spent these two days?
“Hello?”
“Hey Ben… wanna hang out at my place today?”
“Sure James. What time should we meet?”
“How about around 6.00pm? Sounds good?”
“Sounds good to me. How about your parent?”
“Don’t worry about them. They are away for the entire weekends. Plus, I already ask their permission right before I call you, babe.”
“Okay… I just don’t want you got into trouble. You do know you can hang out at my place any time you want right?”
James laughs. “It’s okay. Just get here on time, okay?”
“Okay babe. Love you”
“Love you too Ben.”
After the big night at Ben’s prom, they never really got the chance to hang out alone together. Well, they always go on a date but there is limitation on what they can do in public. So he really looks forward to spend some time alone with James. Ben packs his bag and get ready to head off to James house with his black Mustang.
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“You bring the ice cream?”
“Yeah, here it is. Mint. Your favorite.”
James laughs. “Thanks Ben.”
They sat there cuddling watching The Lion King while eating the ice cream. Everything was fine until Ben’s start kissing the back of James’s neck and trailing his hand down to James pant trying to unbutton his jeans.
“STOP!”
“What? What’s wrong?”
“Can we just make out without getting both of us naked?”
“But James, you’re my future husband. Why are you so afraid of to get naked in front of me?”
“It’s just….I never done it.” James sound like a whisper when he said the last line.
“What?”
“I never had done it. I mean I never been naked in front of anybody before.”
“Oh.” Ben feels dumbstruck. “It’s okay. You don’t have to be embarrassed with me James. You have absolutely nothing to be afraid of.”
“You don’t understand. Getting naked while make out will only lead to SEX.” James blurted out.
Ben was chocked trying to get some air when he heard James said the word sex just like that. He had never saw James being this blunt before.
Well, he sort of expects intercourse once they can’t handle the make out pressure even though he never sleeps with any guy before. This is his first time having a relationship with a guy after his break up with Crystal.
To be honest, he feels pretty nervous about it. It’s just that when he starts kissing James, everything seems so smooth. It’s like James has the magic charm that can make him less nervous and ready for whatever to happen while they are kissing. Turn out James didn’t feel the same way like he did.
“Okay. We don’t have to get naked if that’s what you want. I want you to be comfortable with me James. That’s what matter for me right now.”
“Thanks Ben..... I know this is hard, but I’m just not ready for it.”
“Ssshhh….it’s okay. I got you babe. I would do anything to make you feel happy with me.”
So, they go back cuddling and continue watching the movie but James didn’t pay any attention to the movie anymore.
He’s been thinking about what had been happened just now. Honestly he also didn’t know what wrong with him. It’s not like he never slept with a guy before. He done it with his first boyfriend. It hurts so much until he swears he would never want to do it ever again.
He can sense that Ben is more than ready to do it. Ever since Ben arrives at his home this evening, he has worn nothing other than shorts. James can't do nothing other than just stare at those damn sexy chests. Whenever Ben caught him do it, Ben just laugh at him and kiss his cheeks or his lip for that.
He would be lying if he didn’t feel like want to drag Ben to his bedroom when he see those chest. It’s just that the past experience seems to stop him from doing it. And tonight, Ben seems tried to do what his mind not brave enough to do. He though he can just relax and let Ben takes care of him. But when Ben’s hands tried to unbutton his jean, his mind abruptly stop Ben’s action.
Ben only half concentrate watching the movie because he also thinking about the stuffs that happen between them just now.
He can sense that James wants him as much as he does. The reason why he’s not wearing shirt is to tease James whether James had the courage to make the first move or not. He never did anything with a guy before. So he kinda expecting James took the first move and he will take over the lead from that point.
Looks like Ben need to do something to erase this awkward situation. He felt guilty for pushing James to do something that James obviously not ready.
“Ready to go to sleep?” James suddenly asks.
“Yeah. Let’s go.”
So they turn off the television and head off to James bedroom.
As they both lying on the bed watching the ceiling, suddenly Ben feels like his right hand was dragged to a direction. James takes one of Ben’s hands so that Ben will cuddle him while they were sleeping.
“Goodnight Ben. Sweet dream.”
“Goodnight to you too, babe. Love ya.”
“Love you too Ben.”
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The next morning arrive. Ben mentally planned in his brain on what he wants to do that night. He wanted to apologize about last night.
So while they are spending time at park eating ice cream and eating hot dog watching kids running around, Ben took the chance to ask James about his plan.
“I plan something special for us tonight. Care to join?”
James laughs. This is not the first time he’s been asked like that. He knows Ben like to just suddenly surprise him with his plan.
“Sure. What do you have in mind Ben?”
“Am thinking a romantic dinner and afterward take some walk at the beach.”
“That’s sound romantic. What did I do to deserve the treatment?”
“I want to apologize about last night. I shouldn’t push you last night….”
James turns his gaze and stared into Ben’s eyes. He didn’t know Ben would feel guilty about it. He though Ben might mad at him.
“Ben… I… you…”
Ben cut off on whatever James trying to say at that time. James leans in to the touch and let Ben kiss him. Ben sigh contently when they broke the kiss and look into James eyes. James just smile to Ben.
“You don’t do anything wrong, Ben. But I will be delightful to be your romantic dinner partner tonight.”
“That’s a deal.”
They shared another kissing moments before head off to the cinema to watch Rengo movie.
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Finally the night comes. Ben took James to a fancy Italian restaurant where they enjoyed a full course meal. Afterwards, they took a walk on the beach. Finally it was time to head back home. The car ride to their house was quiet. Ben was thinking about his last move. Hopefully James will like it.
“Are you nervous?” James asked.
“More than you can imagine.” Ben glanced over and smiled, fondly as he pulled into the drive way.
Once they were in the house, Ben tossed his keys on the table and grabbed James’s hand and pulled him to him.
James stared up at him for a moment before Ben lowered his lips to his. James sighed into the kiss as Ben’s lips caressed his slowly and tenderly. He slipped his hands around Ben’s waist. “Mmm,” he whimpered softly.
Ben’s hands rubbed soft circles on James’s back while his tongue explored every crevasse of his lover‘s mouth. He wanted to try his best to make him feel at ease with what was about to happen. He licked his lips as he broke away. “You um, ready to go upstairs?”
James gripped the edges of Ben’s black dinner jacket in his fists, and nodded his head. “MmmHmm.”
Ben leaned in and gave him one softer peck on the lips before taking his hand and pulling him towards the stairs. Once they reached the bedroom, James found his bed already been decorate with rose petals on top of the bed. Ben let go James hand to go to light up the candle that he had prepared before.
Before James can say anything, he found himself been surrounded with somewhat called romantic scene just like in the movie. Then he saw Ben coming to him holding his red guitar.
“James. I would love to dedicate a song just for you. Hopefully you’ll like it.”
James takes a sit in front of Ben on their bed watching nervously what kind of song that Ben would play for him.
Ben started to strum his guitar and play a too familiar song for James
Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
James was speechless. He didn’t know what to say or what to do. The only thing he did is he shed off his tears and starts kissing Ben’s lip. Ben moaned slightly on the kiss and still trying to register what happen in his brain right now. Before he manages to do that, suddenly James whisper against his lips,
“I’m ready Ben. Let’s get this over with.”
“What?” Ben ask, surprised.
James chuckled to see Ben’s expression. “Am ready to take the next step, Ben”
By only hearing that, his hands suddenly landed on James hem shirt getting ready to undress him.
James was feeling extremely nervous. He’d been imagining what it would feel like to have Ben inside of him. He was to the point now that he needed it.
Ben took his time undressing the man in front of him and James did the same to him, until finally they were both standing naked in the dimly lit bedroom, standing at the foot of their bed.
Ben took a step back, resting his hands on James’s shoulders. He took a moment to admire the beauty that was before him. He has never though how incredibly sexy James looked in the nude. He licked his lips and smiled at him.
James smiled brightly back at him. At one time he would have never felt comfortable standing in front of Ben with any clothing on, but right now he had no qualms at all because he likes how Ben look at him.
“You’re staring at me.”
Ben grinned before gently laying James down on the bed. “I can’t help it.” He settled himself on top of him. “You’re just so…” he whispered huskily against the James’s ear. “Beautiful.” Then he chuckled softly. “Seriously, if we lived alone, I would demand that you walk around naked at all times.”
James licked his lips and closed his eyes as the sound of Ben’s voice sent tingles down his body. He gasped softly the feeling of Ben’s lips against his neck. He slipped his arms around Ben and dug his trembling fingers into the white skin as he arched his hips slightly against him.
Ben gasped in shock as James suddenly flipped them over. James smiled down at him before lowering his lips to Ben’s. The kiss was long and slow. James’s tongue dominated Ben’s mouth, gliding smoothly over his lips, caressing his tongue softly. Ben’s fingers tangled in the short dark locks on the back of James’s head as he reveled in their kisses.
Reluctantly, James broke their kiss, but his lips continued to ghost over Ben’s cheek, nipping gently at his jaw. As he was doing so, he grabbed Ben’s hands and pinned them to the bed on either side of his head. He slid the tip of his tongue up to Ben’s ear. “I love you, Ben,” he whispered throatily before sucking his earlobe between his lips and sucking softly.
“Damn, James,” Ben replied, his voice more raspy than usual. “I love you, too. So much….” he closed his eyes and his head lulled back against the pillows as James continued leaving a wet trail down his neck. “Mmmm,” he groaned, as James’s mouth closed around his left nipple.James sucked tenderly on the tiny, hard nub before sliding his tongue flatly to the right to repeat his actions with the other.
Ben felt his cock coming to life as James continued to kiss and suck on every inch of his white skin on his chest, leaving tiny marks in a few places. As he moved further down, he released Ben’s hands and slid his own down to Ben’s sides.
He swirled his tongue around Ben’s navel and began dipping his tongue in and out quickly, teasing him. He looked up at Ben with a teasing smirk as he licked his lips before moving further south.
James began placing tiny kisses on the inside of Ben’s thighs, causing Ben to whimper. Ben sucked in a sharp breath as the tip of James’s tongue slid up the underside of his erection. He pressed his head back into the pillows as he felt James’s hot mouth surround the tip of his long, thick cock. "Oh God..." he whimpered.
"Please....oh shit...James!" Ben fisted his left hand in James's short hair, guiding him, while the other gripped the pillow beside of his head. "Mmmm!"
James sucked on the tip of Ben’s erection hungrily, swirling his tongue around the sensitive head while his hand worked the base. "Oh....James....oh yeah, just like that baby. Fuck!" He moaned in that low husky voice that made James wants to please him more.
James relaxed his throat and took Ben’s cock all the way in, causing him to gasp and arch his hips off the bed. "Oh my GOD!!! Mmmmph!"
James continued for a few moments before slowly letting Ben’s cock fall from his mouth. He let Ben roll them back over and begin that same journey down James’s body. James moaned loudly when Ben finally sucked his cock into his mouth and brought it to life with slow ministrations.
“Ben,” James whimpered, pushing Ben away from him, causing the dark haired boy to look at him with concern.
“I’m…” he swallowed thickly. “Ready.”
After a long searing kiss, Ben stared down at the beautiful man below him. “James…” he whispered his voice hoarse from the raw emotion. “I…I don’t want to hurt you.”
A small smile played across James’s lips. He reached up and placed his hand on the back of Ben’s neck. “You won’t.”
Ben leaned down and kissed him softly. “I love you.” He grabbed a pillow from the head of the bed and slipped it under James’s hips as he raised them off the bed. He then grabbed the small tube of lubricant and a condom from the nightstand. He ripped open the condom and carefully rolled it onto his hard cock. He then flipped the cap up on the lube. He squeezed a liberal amount of the slippery liquid onto his shaky fingers and onto James’s erection.
He wrapped one hand around James’s cock and began to stroke slowly while he moved the other hand to his entrance. Gently, he rubbed a well lubricated finger against the tight pucker. He glanced up as James began to moan softly and thrust his hips slightly. Ben assumed that he was enjoying the way it felt.
“You like that, Baby?”
“Mmm, yeah….” he breathed.
Carefully Ben pushed against the taut ring, slipping the tip of his finger inside. He noticed very little resistance from his fiancé so he continued on, sliding his finger all the way in. He glanced up at James who was licking his lips and exhaling short gasps of breath. Ben began to move the finger in and out and around, gauging James’s reaction. He smiled when he realized that James was thoroughly enjoying what he was doing. Soon he slipped a second finger inside, stretching him just a little more.
James groaned. “Oh yes….Ben….” He began rocking on Ben’s fingers, wanting more.
It was when Ben added the third finger that he felt James’s body tense up and he grimaced. He began to tug a little harder on his erection, hoping to help him relax.
Moments later, James was begging Ben for more, writhing around on the bed. Ben removed his fingers and positioned himself between James’s legs. After adding a large amount of lubrication to his condom covered erection, he lifted the James’s legs and pushed them up against his chest.
James grabbed on to his thighs, holding them up while watching Ben position his cock at his entrance. He licked lips as he watched in anticipation.
“Are you sure, James?” Came the question that he was definitely prepared to answer.
He nodded vehemently. He wanted this so bad. Wanted to feel Ben inside of him. He wanted to know what it felt like to be completely consumed by him.
“Oh Gosh,” he hissed as the tip of Ben’s erection pushed into him.
As Ben began to penetrate James’s unbelievably tight passageway, he bit his lip and forced himself not to plunge quickly into the hot tightness that he felt engulfing the tip of his penis.
He watched James’s eyes flutter shut and he winced slightly at the intrusion. Ben then looked down to see his cock disappearing into the body of his lover. He immediately paused when he heard the agonizing whimpers coming from James.
He looked up to find James’s face was contorted with pain. His eyes squeezed tightly shut, his bottom lip tucked painfully between his teeth. Ben’s eyes widened in alarm.
“James?”
James forced his eyes open. “Don’t stop,” He gasped, reaching a hand out to rest on Ben’s arm. “Please, don’t stop.”
Ben gave in to his plea and kept pushing onward, letting his length slide completely into James’s body.
It was like heaven.
Once he was fully enveloped by James, Ben stared worriedly at James. The shimmer of tears evident on his cheeks. He suddenly felt his own tears threatening to fall.
“Baby,” he whispered as he moved a hand to his cheek, gently rubbing away the tears with his thumb. “I’m so sorry.”
James closed his eyes briefly, sucking in a deep, shaky breath. As he opened them again, he grabbed Ben’s wrist and stared unwaveringly at his fiancé.
“Don’t be,” he whispered, his voice strained from the emotion he felt flowing through his soul.
“I’m ok.” He turned his head slightly and kissed the palm of Ben’s hand. Then he smiled up at Ben and gave his hand a gentle squeeze.
Ben nodded his head. “I won’t move until you tell me to, ok?”
James gave Ben an appreciative smile. The feeling of Ben inside of him was a bit uncomfortable, but at the same time it felt really incredible.
He tried to relax his body more, letting it get accustomed to the feeling.
When he finally gave Ben permission to move, Ben was about to pass out. He didn’t think he could take the stillness much longer. He let out a loud sigh of relief when James said his name and rocked his hips suggestively.
Slowly, Ben begin to slide out of James only to plunge back in, causing the dark haired man to cry out and fist the bed spread in his hands.
“Mmmph!” James’s eyes were fighting to stay open, his long lashes fluttering as they went shut. His lips were parted and his tongue darted out to lick his lips as his breath came in short gasps. “Uhhh…” he whined, scrunching his face slightly as Ben filled him repeatedly.
Ben gradually increased his pace only as James began to respond wantonly. He leaned down to kiss James in the midst of their love making. James let go of his legs and wrapped both his arms and legs around Ben, kissing him passionately as Ben’s cock moved in and out into him like a piston.
“Oh God. Ben!” He gasped, tearing his mouth away, as the tip of Ben’s cock brushed against his prostate for the first time.
“Does it feel good, Baby?” Ben panted as beads of sweat broke out over his body.
James dug his fingers into Ben’s back, clinging to his fiancé for dear life as their bodies rocked to the rhythm that Ben had set.
“Yes…” he gasped. "So good, Ben….so good.” Ben then reached between them and began stroking James’s erection again.
“Oh….Oh yeah….Baby. Mmm…” James buried his face in the crook of Ben’s shoulder, biting down on the tender flesh of his shoulder.
Ben was about ready to let go his orgasm when he suddenly felt James hand placed on his chest giving him a signal to stop.
“What’s wrong? Did I hurt you?”
James who still trying to catch up his breathes said: “I want to feel you inside me Ben. Please cum inside me. Please”
Ben didn’t know how to respond to James plea. A part of him wants to but he aware the danger of having a bareback intercourse.
“Are you sure about this James?”
“Yes Ben. Please” James plea again.
Ben gives in to James plea and removes the condom from his dick.
When Ben starts entering that hole again, he feels like his dick been clenched tightly around the ass muscle and for a moment he though he’s going to lose his dick. So he start kissing James hoping James would feel relax again. It did. James feel a little bit relax when he feels Ben's lips kissing his neck.
Ben never though how much fun having a bareback intercourse. Of course, at first it’s hard for him to move but once he got his pace, he starts pounding into James with a dynamic rhythm.
He knows he can’t stand much longer anymore but he also wants to make James feel the same way like he feels right now. So he used his other hand and start stroking James shaft according to his pace.
James can’t describe his feeling when Ben treated him like that. He tried to last as long as his body can take but with Ben’s hand keep stroking his erection, he knows he can’t stand much longer.
Every time Ben pound into him this time, his dick keep brushing his soft spot. James swears his eyes almost see a white light. Getting shove to his soft spot constantly while in the same time trying to contain the feeling of getting stroke is just too much for James to handle.
That’s it for James. He moaned loudly while he released his seed on Ben’s hand and in the same time he bites Ben’s shoulder because of the excitement he got from releasing his own orgasm.
“BENNNNNN…..MMMMMPH!!! FUCK.BENNN….BENNNN…..AM ….” James can’t even finish his sentences when he reached his climax.
Ben felt James’s body clenching down around him as his release rocked his body. Combined with the sting of teeth digging into his flesh and the hot stickiness of James’s cum landing hotly against his chest, it triggered his own orgasm.
“OH FUCK! JAMES!” he cried out as he emptied his load into the buried deep inside of James. “Fuckfuckfuckfuck….” he whimpered as tears sprung to his eyes. “Oh, God,” he panted as his head fell to rest against James’s shoulder.
James had never came this hard in his life. This is far better than masturbating himself. Plus he really enjoy with the feeling of Ben seed inside of him. His ass feels warm with sticky fluid that he knows coming from the person who he loves so much in his life. Everything at that moment feels so special in James heart.
Ben finally looked up into James eyes and smile. James sneaks his hand behind Ben’s head and brings his lips down to him. They shared another long and slow passionate kiss, showing to each other how much love they feel toward one another.
Neither of them bothers to stop the kiss until Ben broke the kiss trying to gasp some air. But not for too long before Ben reached down once again, claiming James lips to his own.
He not even bothers to take out his dick out of James body. The only thing he cares at that time is showing his love and affection to James as much as he can.
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After cleaning them both up, Ben crawled into bed with James and pulled his warm body close to him. He kissed his temple and snuggled tightly against him.
“I love you so much, James.” He whispered. “Thank you for letting me shows you.”
James smiled lazily, his body still coming down from the euphoric high that Ben had put him on.
“I love you too.” He said. “You don’t need to thank me. I wanted this so bad.”
“Well, I’m glad you trusted me enough to give yourself to me completely.”
“There is no one else in the world that I would rather share myself with.” James slipped his arms around him. “I love you, Ben. More than my own life”
James notices his fiancé staring at his face again, so he decides to ask him.
“What are you thinking about?” James asked.
Ben smiled happily and placed a hand on James’s cheek. “Us.”
James looked at him and giggled softly. “What about us?”
Ben shook his head slowly, loving the way his heart swelled at the mere sound of James’s laugh. “Everything. I’ve never been so happy in all of my life, James. I have you to thank for that.”
James swallowed the lump in his throat and stared at his fiancé. “Really?”
Ben nodded. “Really.” He smiled seeing the sparkle in James’s eyes. He leaned in and kissed the boy softly.
“You make my life complete.”
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~The End~