overwhelmed
i've had a bad day and i feel really helpless.. helpless to help myself.. i feel so much emotion right now and there's so much going around in my head.. all these contradicting trains of thought that i can't even keep up with.. like ANYTHING i think of can be cancelled out or discounted half a second later, going round and round. its not like anything major's even happened today, i just feel awful. i have so much work to do and i can't get myself motivated to do it. i can't get myself motivated to do anything. i mostly put on a happy face and i just don't want to anymore. i feel so unjustified in feeling so miserable because i don't have a valid reason to feel this way.. this kind of misery is just self-indulgent. i don't seem able to take control. i have no self-discipline. i compare myself to everyone around me. i feel so ugly. and i feel lonely. how many "i"s? self-indulgence.
this is getting ridiculous :|
xx
this is getting ridiculous :|
xx