SO is it ok if you just want to die sometimes?
WOw ok so i definitely had one of those days today.... I was seriously out of it i just felt that everone like hated me today and it sucked.. Like at lunch i just sat there listening to music ..(ok so its not that rare but i wasn't even in the mood to talk) ANd i mean Colton and Damion tried their best to make me laugh etc. but i just felt like ok these arent my friends.. I honestly just felt like talking to Bryan and having him make me laugh and i mean like an honest to goodness laugh not this fake shit i do to make others happy. ANd i know i said i wouldnt do that anymore but i just feel like wow ok this is a part of me i cant change this. anyways... I just felt like being invisible.. And spanish didnt help at all because Ms Llana had something against me today.. maybe because i didnt sit right by her flipping desk. Ugh sorry im just in a pissed mood and it's not good. Chem i almost fell asleep in today. bleh
Ugh so anyways i came home and i just slept. And im tired again. I think i'm getting back into that depressed state (AGAIN) ugh and i know it's not good but it kind of makes me happy because it's something i know something that strangely comforts me. man im fucked up
Oh by the way I got a new nickname from like my fave person in the world Mr colton Case.... Yazzles (i forgot the middle name) Tortilla
THat name was also made possible by DAMION!! woot woot
yes so i'm just going to go die and make everyone happy.. bye
Ugh so anyways i came home and i just slept. And im tired again. I think i'm getting back into that depressed state (AGAIN) ugh and i know it's not good but it kind of makes me happy because it's something i know something that strangely comforts me. man im fucked up
Oh by the way I got a new nickname from like my fave person in the world Mr colton Case.... Yazzles (i forgot the middle name) Tortilla
THat name was also made possible by DAMION!! woot woot
yes so i'm just going to go die and make everyone happy.. bye