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OK so i really should be doing my homework right now but i totally dont feel like it! This is going to be my most random entry yet so im warning you if you even want to read it! ok so its like pouring rain outside and im sitting by the pool in the rain soaking wet and all i can really do is think. Im just thinking about how i really want to be with a certain someone but i cant help but hate him and then my like conscience inside is telling me to give him up and move on to another certain someone that may not be the perfect guy but i love being around him and just talking. And then i get to thinking what if i had never met Kevin (the first guy obviously) and what would have happened. like would i have gotten my heart broken truley for the first time would i even go to the winter formal dance. there are so many possibilities that it's just crazy to think that there are so many possibilities and that i just totally wasted my time on Kevin. and everyone now that's reading this is like omg yaz you are a true idiot and well yes, i am! I messed up Yet AGAIN in my life!
i SERIOUSLY want to redo my life from like 7th grade on. MAJOR REGRETS and i know i always say like live like you want to no regrets well i lied there are always going to be regrets
So when i was outside sitting there soaking wet i began thinking about the regrets in my life.... I made a list...
* Not saying yes to that first guy that asked me out
* Not spending enough time with Joey and Nate
* That whole big incident in 8th grade (ya'll know what)
* Taking for granted my friendships with Steve, steve, Bryan, and Pat
* Quitting SAC (Technically i was forced to but still)
* Spending WAY too much time with Kevin
* Getting Caught up in drama
* Worrying about what people truely thought of me while not really being my self
* Trying to please Everyone
* Not having the balls to ask people out (ok i did once and that was a complete failure)
* Not completing all my plans
thats all for now
i SERIOUSLY want to redo my life from like 7th grade on. MAJOR REGRETS and i know i always say like live like you want to no regrets well i lied there are always going to be regrets
So when i was outside sitting there soaking wet i began thinking about the regrets in my life.... I made a list...
* Not saying yes to that first guy that asked me out
* Not spending enough time with Joey and Nate
* That whole big incident in 8th grade (ya'll know what)
* Taking for granted my friendships with Steve, steve, Bryan, and Pat
* Quitting SAC (Technically i was forced to but still)
* Spending WAY too much time with Kevin
* Getting Caught up in drama
* Worrying about what people truely thought of me while not really being my self
* Trying to please Everyone
* Not having the balls to ask people out (ok i did once and that was a complete failure)
* Not completing all my plans
thats all for now