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Well hello livejournal.
So much has changed since my last post on July 26. I can't even begin to explain what a whirlwind my life has been.
I have moved twice since then. First with an awful roommate, who in many ways emulated the life of satan. She was an awful human being. I am so happy to not be around her or have her in my life anymore. And now I am living in my own place in Niagara Falls...by myself. Just my puppy and I.
You heard it right, by myself. I broke up with Reuben on October 7. It was a liberating experience. I never thought that I could be my own person. I was always an us, never a me. It is nice just being me. I like it. I am adjusting well. I thought my life would be miserable without him and I have only come to find I am such a better, more carefree, and happy individual without him. Looking back on the past 3 years of my life I was miserable. Even looking back on so many of my lj posts....I was so sad.
I am happy now. I am myself now. I have realized what is important in life and realized I need to have standards and not just be with someone out of fear of being alone.
I am still figuring things out, but it feels good.
As for my job, I am still working rape crisis. Things have become increasingly more difficult as I am only 22, I manage the entire program, and I am my only staff. When you are trying to serve an entire county it becomes overwhelming. I do all the reports for the Dept. of Criminal Justice, and the Dept. of Health (all of which are quarterly and there are 3 each quarter) I also have several annual reports. I have to do a workplan every 6 mo., hold a billion meetings, train advocates, counsel clients, do crisis intervention, provide advocacy and accopaniments, and provide all the community education, train law enforcement, do in-services for several agencies....I love my job, don;t get me wrong...but it is ever so stressful right now.
Well that was a long update about my life currently....
And for those of my friends who I may have put to the side throughout my relationship with Reuben I apologize. I was so scared of being alone because if insecurities that I had about myself that I was afraid to be without him ever. I apologize and I love you all. And for those of you who have really stuck it out with me...well, thank you. I love you more than anything.
So much has changed since my last post on July 26. I can't even begin to explain what a whirlwind my life has been.
I have moved twice since then. First with an awful roommate, who in many ways emulated the life of satan. She was an awful human being. I am so happy to not be around her or have her in my life anymore. And now I am living in my own place in Niagara Falls...by myself. Just my puppy and I.
You heard it right, by myself. I broke up with Reuben on October 7. It was a liberating experience. I never thought that I could be my own person. I was always an us, never a me. It is nice just being me. I like it. I am adjusting well. I thought my life would be miserable without him and I have only come to find I am such a better, more carefree, and happy individual without him. Looking back on the past 3 years of my life I was miserable. Even looking back on so many of my lj posts....I was so sad.
I am happy now. I am myself now. I have realized what is important in life and realized I need to have standards and not just be with someone out of fear of being alone.
I am still figuring things out, but it feels good.
As for my job, I am still working rape crisis. Things have become increasingly more difficult as I am only 22, I manage the entire program, and I am my only staff. When you are trying to serve an entire county it becomes overwhelming. I do all the reports for the Dept. of Criminal Justice, and the Dept. of Health (all of which are quarterly and there are 3 each quarter) I also have several annual reports. I have to do a workplan every 6 mo., hold a billion meetings, train advocates, counsel clients, do crisis intervention, provide advocacy and accopaniments, and provide all the community education, train law enforcement, do in-services for several agencies....I love my job, don;t get me wrong...but it is ever so stressful right now.
Well that was a long update about my life currently....
And for those of my friends who I may have put to the side throughout my relationship with Reuben I apologize. I was so scared of being alone because if insecurities that I had about myself that I was afraid to be without him ever. I apologize and I love you all. And for those of you who have really stuck it out with me...well, thank you. I love you more than anything.