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Hello all.
Okay so mostly all of the important people in my life know this but in case you don't...
I am having Gastric Bypass Surgery.
I KNOW ITS SCARY!!!
I can't tell you how many people have told me it is a bad idea and if I want to lose weight I just need to exercise and drink water...If it was that easy I would be at a healthy weight.
I am not doing this to get skinny or for aesthetics alone. I am doing it to be a role model for my patients, friends, and family. I don't ever want to be what is perceived as "skinny", I want to be healthy. I still want to keep some of my chub, honestly I think it is what makes me who I am. For so long I have been everyones token fat girl. I just don't want to be that anymore. I want to be healthy. It is very hard to act like my weight doesn't bother me. I always say that I am big and beautiful and if you don't like it tough. Yes, I am big and yes I do think I am beautiful....but the sad part is, I am the one who doesn't like it.
In any case I have started a new livejournal solely dedicated to my journey of losing the weight through surgery. My livejournal name is...
yououghtaknow
Love you Alanis.
haha
I am still keeping this journal. That one is specifically for my feelings for my surgery and it will document doctors appointments, seminars, and seeing the psychologist. I have not writted in it yet. I just recently got the go ahead from my doctor to do the surgery and I am currently filling out my application to get into the bariatric center at Buffalo General. It is going to be a very long process. This journal is so I can look back and see what I went through. Maybe it can help someone else and it is for you guys. I want my friends to see what I am going through and how hard I am really working for this surgery. So if you want to red about it add my new name. I have a doctors appointment next week and I will probably start journaling then. To all of you who have supported me so far...LOVA LOVA....Thank you. I love you guys.
Okay so mostly all of the important people in my life know this but in case you don't...
I am having Gastric Bypass Surgery.
I KNOW ITS SCARY!!!
I can't tell you how many people have told me it is a bad idea and if I want to lose weight I just need to exercise and drink water...If it was that easy I would be at a healthy weight.
I am not doing this to get skinny or for aesthetics alone. I am doing it to be a role model for my patients, friends, and family. I don't ever want to be what is perceived as "skinny", I want to be healthy. I still want to keep some of my chub, honestly I think it is what makes me who I am. For so long I have been everyones token fat girl. I just don't want to be that anymore. I want to be healthy. It is very hard to act like my weight doesn't bother me. I always say that I am big and beautiful and if you don't like it tough. Yes, I am big and yes I do think I am beautiful....but the sad part is, I am the one who doesn't like it.
In any case I have started a new livejournal solely dedicated to my journey of losing the weight through surgery. My livejournal name is...
yououghtaknow
Love you Alanis.
haha
I am still keeping this journal. That one is specifically for my feelings for my surgery and it will document doctors appointments, seminars, and seeing the psychologist. I have not writted in it yet. I just recently got the go ahead from my doctor to do the surgery and I am currently filling out my application to get into the bariatric center at Buffalo General. It is going to be a very long process. This journal is so I can look back and see what I went through. Maybe it can help someone else and it is for you guys. I want my friends to see what I am going through and how hard I am really working for this surgery. So if you want to red about it add my new name. I have a doctors appointment next week and I will probably start journaling then. To all of you who have supported me so far...LOVA LOVA....Thank you. I love you guys.