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[unperfect_me]

I keep it all inside until I break,
And all these lies about it, I make.
To hide the truth, mostly from me,
So that's the part you do not see.
I beg to God that I'll be okay,
But this happens to me every day.
I bottle feelings up inside,
And hope that you should be my guide.
For when I break, the tears with flow,
And all of these secrets, you will know.
But as I realize as the tears come along,
This is a way to prove you're wrong.
I'm sadder and less than I appear,
And I wish that only God was here.
Only God to see my tears flowing,
And God being the only person knowing.
I wish the truth could be a lie,
I wish that I could lay down and die.
Because nobody knows and nobody cares,
That my life has so many wears and tears.
You say it's okay to break and cry,
But I just want to know How and Why?
Is it all my fault, did I do something wrong?
My life is anything BUT a sweet song.
I keep it all inside until I break,
And all these lies about it I make.
To hide the truth, mostly from me,
So that's the part you do not see.
I wish that you'd just know,
That I hate myself so.
But you said "it's okay to break down and cry"
I think it's easier to break down and die.
I will stop these lies which I make,
Because you say "it's okay to break."