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I don't think I'll ever be the same person as I was...even about a week ago.
It's funny how you think you're done growing, changing, going through painful decisions, and realizing that people aren't ever really who you thought they were. It's funny how I truly can only trust very few people and those people are, surprisingly, not the ones I started out with. It's funny how I never could have predicted things to end up this way or for my life to feel so much like a fucking movie that I should have been able to see this ending coming. Anyone else in the audience would have been bored shitless by now because they would have seen it coming. But me? I'm like that girl in the scary movies who walks into the dark and ominous room all alone as the creepy music plays in the background while everyone in the audience just knows that something bad will occur if she goes in.
Finals are at the end of this week, and I have barely picked up any books. I'll do that today.
I feel really enlightened by life right now and it's as if a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders because now I can understand why a lot of things have happened. And how all of this isn't going to matter in a few months.
I'm sorry that this post probably makes no sense to anyone except for me, but whatever. Next time I update this electronic monster, I'll try to be more coherent with my thoughts.
Katy
P.S.--The same person who took over my screenname a few days ago deleted all of my buddies in the process. SO, if you would like to be a part of my buddy list again, you can either comment here or IM me and I'll add you.
EDIT: this is creepy.
ALSO. Why do horoscopes always have to be so true?
Courage feels like a matter of course when you're not afraid. But to anyone watching from the outside, it looks like a big deal as you dare to open your excess baggage and sort through all that dirty laundry. You're ready to lighten your load and change your life. You're eager to accumulate new experiences, and that's what makes you so unselfconsciously brave. Once the deed is done, your relief will be immediate. If you could move through your life with this level of confidence and efficiency, all your problems would be solved. You can always aspire to this.
It's funny how you think you're done growing, changing, going through painful decisions, and realizing that people aren't ever really who you thought they were. It's funny how I truly can only trust very few people and those people are, surprisingly, not the ones I started out with. It's funny how I never could have predicted things to end up this way or for my life to feel so much like a fucking movie that I should have been able to see this ending coming. Anyone else in the audience would have been bored shitless by now because they would have seen it coming. But me? I'm like that girl in the scary movies who walks into the dark and ominous room all alone as the creepy music plays in the background while everyone in the audience just knows that something bad will occur if she goes in.
Finals are at the end of this week, and I have barely picked up any books. I'll do that today.
I feel really enlightened by life right now and it's as if a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders because now I can understand why a lot of things have happened. And how all of this isn't going to matter in a few months.
I'm sorry that this post probably makes no sense to anyone except for me, but whatever. Next time I update this electronic monster, I'll try to be more coherent with my thoughts.
Katy
P.S.--The same person who took over my screenname a few days ago deleted all of my buddies in the process. SO, if you would like to be a part of my buddy list again, you can either comment here or IM me and I'll add you.
EDIT: this is creepy.
ALSO. Why do horoscopes always have to be so true?
Courage feels like a matter of course when you're not afraid. But to anyone watching from the outside, it looks like a big deal as you dare to open your excess baggage and sort through all that dirty laundry. You're ready to lighten your load and change your life. You're eager to accumulate new experiences, and that's what makes you so unselfconsciously brave. Once the deed is done, your relief will be immediate. If you could move through your life with this level of confidence and efficiency, all your problems would be solved. You can always aspire to this.