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OK, so I'm hung up on "waaaa there's nothing I'm good at that really defines me, I have no super awesome skill" and I know I've been over this one a million times and it's annoyed many a person but ya know what? Last time I checked, no one was forcing you to read this.
Now that that is out of the way, I guess I just always felt like skill should feel kind of natural is a sense when developing it. Like, take learning a musical instrument for instance, you pick it up for the first time, its the most awkward thing it the world. Now I'm not saying Eddie Van Halen was shredding from day one, he had to practice his ass off. But I always thought you weren't supposed to mind the practice. and that you never really got frustrated cause for some reason it felt natural and everything just sort of clicked into place.
I guess it's really more of the determination thing than figuring out what types of skills you're geared for. And for some reason, I'm not really determined, I'm not really motivated. It seems like the thing I excel at is analyzing myself...and that's not really all that awesome. Maybe I should just quit IRC and most internet until I get so bored that I say "ya know what, I'm gonna go do and have that skill be my talent."
I'm also kind of eternally discouraged. I think "well, what if I try this, and buy into it and everything, but then I find out it's not my thing, there goes a bunch of wasted time, effort, and money."
That's all I really got for tonight, advice, hate mail, whatever you got is welcome. Tune in next time when I'll try and spackle over my character flaws.
Now that that is out of the way, I guess I just always felt like skill should feel kind of natural is a sense when developing it. Like, take learning a musical instrument for instance, you pick it up for the first time, its the most awkward thing it the world. Now I'm not saying Eddie Van Halen was shredding from day one, he had to practice his ass off. But I always thought you weren't supposed to mind the practice. and that you never really got frustrated cause for some reason it felt natural and everything just sort of clicked into place.
I guess it's really more of the determination thing than figuring out what types of skills you're geared for. And for some reason, I'm not really determined, I'm not really motivated. It seems like the thing I excel at is analyzing myself...and that's not really all that awesome. Maybe I should just quit IRC and most internet until I get so bored that I say "ya know what, I'm gonna go do and have that skill be my talent."
I'm also kind of eternally discouraged. I think "well, what if I try this, and buy into it and everything, but then I find out it's not my thing, there goes a bunch of wasted time, effort, and money."
That's all I really got for tonight, advice, hate mail, whatever you got is welcome. Tune in next time when I'll try and spackle over my character flaws.