Tell me how?
How do you tell someone that you really care and you're scared of the future without sounding like a complete bitch? I won't throw out any names since this isn't a FO post but seriously man so much shit has become stressful lately! I hate not knowing how to feel and when to feel it. I just want to be like hey man it's like this no questions asked. I never thought wanting something so much could cause so much f-ing bullshit, but apparently it does. I want so much to give up on caring about people and yet this following my heart business has me all shitty feeling inside.
Why is it that whenever I want something, something else holds me back. I WANT SOME DAMN ANSWERS!
In all honestly I thought life would end since I have a baby and I'm not anywhere close to being married. That's why I'm like I give up on love. No one can possibly care about a single mom. I've come to talk myself into believing that I'll be lonely for the rest of my life because I have a baby. I'm sitting here now like "oh well it's just me and you now baby" and it sucks like all hell man.
So I talked to the ex (the ex from 3 or 4 years ago) and I told him how I'm feeling and he assured me that its all in my head. He makes me smile when I feel like hell. I'm so tired of being alone. The holidays are coming up and I sure as hell dont want to spend them alone this time!
Why is it that whenever I want something, something else holds me back. I WANT SOME DAMN ANSWERS!
In all honestly I thought life would end since I have a baby and I'm not anywhere close to being married. That's why I'm like I give up on love. No one can possibly care about a single mom. I've come to talk myself into believing that I'll be lonely for the rest of my life because I have a baby. I'm sitting here now like "oh well it's just me and you now baby" and it sucks like all hell man.
So I talked to the ex (the ex from 3 or 4 years ago) and I told him how I'm feeling and he assured me that its all in my head. He makes me smile when I feel like hell. I'm so tired of being alone. The holidays are coming up and I sure as hell dont want to spend them alone this time!