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I'm having serious mental block and anxiety issues with homework/school lately. I have A LOT of work, but I'm taking unnecessarily long to do the work as well. I really can't afford to do this to myself at this point because I'm making myself exhausted. I.E i stayed up till 6am working on my urban public art project/reading for NO REASON. I wasn't accomplishing anything for hours, so i started on reading despite the fact it isn't as important as the proposal. I Guess this got me in the working spirit, b/c i finished my proposal in a half hour once i started writing it and AFTER my reading was done. I'm thinking that maybe I shouldn't go straight into essays and writing anymore, and that i should start on readings or projects because I'm less intimidated by them and it would get me into the flow of doing my work. Either way, i need to put an end to this because homework isn't worth having panic attacks over and i KNOW it's stupid when i'm getting upset but I can't help it. It's really irrational. I also noticed that i get MORE upset when I get an unplanned homework assignment that wasn't in the syllabus, i completely freak out and think there is no way i can make time for it. I've gotten a little too obsessed w/ scheduling perhaps and getting things done on certain dates and times. It HAS helped a lot as far as me having panic attack episodes about the volume of work I have, but maybe I'm getting a little too used to planning out EVERYTHING. I think a lot of why i freaked out so badly was b/c i hadn't planned on having THAT much work.

That is basically my life/dillemma as of right now in a nutshell, I'm completley burnt out/exhausted and something is seriously not okay with how I am reacting to the amount of work I'm getting.

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I'm working at starbucks now, i actually like it. My coworkers are pleasant/not disgruntled like my last job and they treat their employees a hell of a lot better in general. We also close at 7:30pm :)