an ugly anniversary
Tomorrow is 4 years since the end of the life I loved and cherished. I willed my self to pull through and fought to come home to my kids only to learn they don't seem to care if I survived. And I will never know why, it is so unnatural but it is what it is and I will always love my babies and when they come to me asking for forgiveness I just hope they truly understand asking is not needed I will be waiting with open arms and my tears can finally stop, my fears can rest peacefully, the sun will again shine in my heart, and things will be O.k. in time for me to enjoy my Grand children. Until then I will work on getting stronger learning more and making a good life for MYSELF. I will always be here for them, but not as a doormat. So until then I have lots of work to do on the inside and the out.