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[unnoticed_child]

if i cried more then a thousand tears would you stop me from disappearing
would you watch me as i tore open my self and pulled out the one thing
that makes me, me?

these pages that i write on
are over flowing with grief
my friends
i love
some know this not
some know more then others

and yet i wish i could tell the ones that dont know
that i love them with all of my heart
there is one
that stands out most
and it pains my heart
to watch her decend
into the unknown world where she will be dead
you should not wish it
you should not want it
keep your self away from drowning
into your self pitty and reliance on others

if you must
take a hand
i will pull you up
bring you far away from this land

but i cant come
this is my home
so forgive me if i may sound to the blunt
for it is something i know you do not expect
but ive killed myself more then once
and tomorrow for me is no exception

you are a beautiful child
dont fill your mind with thoughts that your not
dont compare your self to those who dont even add up to your stature
yeah you can fall into the arms of us who love you
i know it sounds wierd coming from me
for we havent spoken in what seems like eternity
but love
im not beautiful nor am i an amazing person from when we have spoke last and from what i remember no one ever really gave a shit

*yawns* so much pain and no one to take it away..... *sighs*
wont someone save me

for i desperately need it