oi to the vey
So today was not a great day. This whole week hasn't been the greatest. It wasn't really bad, but was kind of dragging. And I started to doubt myself. So it was a long(ish) week. Weeks (and time in general) go really fast. I think it is part of the not in 'school' not going to 'class' doing homework thing about real life. People say that time goes really fast once you get out of school and get a job and that has been the case here. At least for the two months I've been here.
So it turned out that I was just not in the mood to rehash the whole things. It just brought it all back up and in my breaks it was mentally much better to just dive into a ken ken puzzle. And now I'm too tired.
So the short version.
I just kind of freaked out this morning. I hate crying at work. It makes me feel so unprofessional and childish, which makes me feel even worse, creating a bit of a circular problem. Plus I can't really talk to my boss about all of it (you know the whole 'I don't really like kids so what the hell am I doing here' bit).
So it turned out that I was just not in the mood to rehash the whole things. It just brought it all back up and in my breaks it was mentally much better to just dive into a ken ken puzzle. And now I'm too tired.
So the short version.
I just kind of freaked out this morning. I hate crying at work. It makes me feel so unprofessional and childish, which makes me feel even worse, creating a bit of a circular problem. Plus I can't really talk to my boss about all of it (you know the whole 'I don't really like kids so what the hell am I doing here' bit).