Beating myself
I'm trying to write a paper. But I got bored and started looking at pictures on facebook. Namely this girl's pictures.
Her name is Stacey James and I find her perfect in every way. We're classmates. She is so nice and beautiful and tiny. She is also vegetarian, but eats a little meat. She does yoga and skis and snowboards. She also does all her reading and homework. I'm pretty sure her parents are loaded because she doesn't work, but has very nice things. Whenever I feel crappy about myself I always look at her pictures on facebook. It makes me want to be perfect too. And anorexic. I wish I hadn't eaten all those animal crackers and peanut butter an hour ago. I want to stop eating. She doesn't eat very much and I and another girl think she has an ED. Of course she's denied it, but I've never talked to her about it one on one. She's always really nice to me and it always makes my day, haha. I should grow up and not care so much what she thinks, but I do. I even talked to her about eating meat, for suggestions. It made my day that she talked to me. I always enjoy talking to her in class, she's funny. Gosh....why do I care so much?? Confession: I may have a small girl crush on her, but nothing big.
I want to look more like her and less like me.
I think I'll try to write a bit more on my paper. I just wanted to confess that I'm obsessed. And pathetic.
Goodnight.
Her name is Stacey James and I find her perfect in every way. We're classmates. She is so nice and beautiful and tiny. She is also vegetarian, but eats a little meat. She does yoga and skis and snowboards. She also does all her reading and homework. I'm pretty sure her parents are loaded because she doesn't work, but has very nice things. Whenever I feel crappy about myself I always look at her pictures on facebook. It makes me want to be perfect too. And anorexic. I wish I hadn't eaten all those animal crackers and peanut butter an hour ago. I want to stop eating. She doesn't eat very much and I and another girl think she has an ED. Of course she's denied it, but I've never talked to her about it one on one. She's always really nice to me and it always makes my day, haha. I should grow up and not care so much what she thinks, but I do. I even talked to her about eating meat, for suggestions. It made my day that she talked to me. I always enjoy talking to her in class, she's funny. Gosh....why do I care so much?? Confession: I may have a small girl crush on her, but nothing big.
I want to look more like her and less like me.
I think I'll try to write a bit more on my paper. I just wanted to confess that I'm obsessed. And pathetic.
Goodnight.