Am I Here? Of Course I Am, Yes. All I Need is Your Hand to Drag Me Out Again.
I've been listening to a lot of Promise Ring again lately. I think it's because Jen spotted Happiness is all the Rage on my running playlist while I was in Seattle and for some reason that got me listening to them again. I just checked on iTunes and there are 2 albums of theirs I don't have for some reason. Looks like I'll be making a purchase tonight.
I'm thinking about cancelling my gym membership. I haven't gone in 3 months and my desire to go just never seems to come back. Really though, nothing good has ever come from my experiences at the gym. It was where Virginia met Mark and I only really started going frequently after she left as some stupid attempt to prove to her that I could do it. I'm not like Chris, I never really had any desire to "get ripped." I just want to stay healthy and look decent naked. I think the running and the diet are taking care of a lot of that. When I can refrain from being a drunken mess that helps as well, those beer and bourbon calories really add up.
Yesterday while Kaylee and I were at 4 Peaks I got a text from Virginia because apparently the hard drive died in the laptop she got in the divorce. I wanted to respond with, "I fail to see how that is my problem," but I decided against it. I really would have only said that as a joke, but I know she wouldn't take it as one. I sent a polite reply informing her that I couldn't really do anything if the drive is actually dead and that I didn't have a back up of her old profile but I still have most of her old pictures and music on the server at home and if she wants that once she gets a new hard drive I'd give it to her. Kaylee kept telling me I was too nice and that I should tell Virginia off and basically be an asshole about things, but really I just don't care about Virginia enough anymore to keep harboring that hatred. I let go of that on June 28th. It's so weird, but it's true. I hit that 1 year mark and then it was like the anger just faded. It's like I mentally had to hold onto it for that year and then I just released it. I've got weird issues with time it seems.
I've been feeling quite lost lately. Work is always shitty in August and I've been stressed out and just on edge. I don't know what I want to do with my life, but being in management sure isn't it. I guess I should really start focusing on what I want long term and stop worrying so much about right now.
I'm thinking about cancelling my gym membership. I haven't gone in 3 months and my desire to go just never seems to come back. Really though, nothing good has ever come from my experiences at the gym. It was where Virginia met Mark and I only really started going frequently after she left as some stupid attempt to prove to her that I could do it. I'm not like Chris, I never really had any desire to "get ripped." I just want to stay healthy and look decent naked. I think the running and the diet are taking care of a lot of that. When I can refrain from being a drunken mess that helps as well, those beer and bourbon calories really add up.
Yesterday while Kaylee and I were at 4 Peaks I got a text from Virginia because apparently the hard drive died in the laptop she got in the divorce. I wanted to respond with, "I fail to see how that is my problem," but I decided against it. I really would have only said that as a joke, but I know she wouldn't take it as one. I sent a polite reply informing her that I couldn't really do anything if the drive is actually dead and that I didn't have a back up of her old profile but I still have most of her old pictures and music on the server at home and if she wants that once she gets a new hard drive I'd give it to her. Kaylee kept telling me I was too nice and that I should tell Virginia off and basically be an asshole about things, but really I just don't care about Virginia enough anymore to keep harboring that hatred. I let go of that on June 28th. It's so weird, but it's true. I hit that 1 year mark and then it was like the anger just faded. It's like I mentally had to hold onto it for that year and then I just released it. I've got weird issues with time it seems.
I've been feeling quite lost lately. Work is always shitty in August and I've been stressed out and just on edge. I don't know what I want to do with my life, but being in management sure isn't it. I guess I should really start focusing on what I want long term and stop worrying so much about right now.