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wow. tonight is a normal night but im moody. i just dont like people anymore. like theres certain people i do like then the rest i hate. ive never hated anyone before. i thought that if i didnt hate them, they would like me. but i was wrong. people suck. i tried for so long to be nice to everyone but now ive realised its not worth it. especially my old friends. like we were friends and then something happened....and now its like weve never known each other. STUPID uggg .. i guess people change. then there are people who i really think are amazing and id love to be friends with but....i doubt theyd ever want to be friends with me. lately ive been noticing ive been spending a lot of time trying to fit in. it sucks because i dont feel like i fit in anywhere. like i randomly started dressing all preppy again because i thought i could get my old friends back but that didnt work out and now i have all this pink shit that i never used to want to wear and now i wear it. and ugg. i mean i love the friends i have. they are amazing. but i always feel like i want more than what i have and i shouldnt. but i do. its a fact of life. everyone wants more than they have. ive also noticed im really good at telling if people are acting fake or not. maybe because i have been. ive been acting really fake and it sucks. i have a fake radar. ugg some of the friends that i really miss are rachel marcus heather katie caleb lia jared ahh i miss them soo much. COME BACK GUYS :-p ugg coment if youd like <3