i just read

[unluckyprincess]

the saddest book that i have ever read or even heard about! it makes you think sooo much! all this soldier wanted to do was get out of the war and live with his pregnant fiancee (french word) and so they finally accomplish it, and his baby ends up dying taking his fiancee with it! how horrible! like... life can never be absolutely perfect... get

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Deep Thoughts, by nakedmelon

[nakedmelon]

everything is relative, this kinda goes along with alice's LJ about people always wanting more, because they do. I am not saying I understand why anyone would want to kill themselves, by no means, but, people in general don't realize how good they have it. Also I feel that if someone actually wants to kill themselves, they will do it. When they talk about it, that is a different issue all together. In the months before my brother went to rehab, he would threaten to commit suicide nearly everytime he and my dad fought, which was alot, and it scared me to death, and often brought me to tears, but the fact of the matter was/is that that was him asking for attention. If he wanted to do it, really wanted to, he would have. In a way I understand that feeling of being so pissed off that I want my dad to realize that I am important to him, however I deal with it in less drastic ways. I think craig wanted my dad to see how sad he would be if he were gone, unfortunately and fortunately at the same time this is not something we can just imagine, the loss of someone important to us can never be fully realized until it happens. In addition, my most recent ex-boyfriend (who is still my ex, going strong, thank GOD!) has extreme and frequent suicidal tendencies. It scares me too, and in the end has proven to be more than I can handle. His, I believe stems from chemical imbalances in his brain, (he is crazy, literally) along with very low self esteem. He may appear confident but he is not. There are many factors in a persons life which may contribute to one's self esteem or lack there of. It may also have something to do with getting attention with him as well, this is probably the biggest reason that people discuss comitting suicide, in myopinion. Even I have wanted to not wake up before, but I have never felt compelled to take my own life, never. While you ask yourself why would someone want to do it?, I have always taken a more morbid look at it, I ask myslef this: if someone really wanted to do it, why would they talk about it, why not just pull the trigger if you're that set on it? And some people do it without talking about it, and that is a shame, how is anyone to know they need help? But if you tell someone, they will try to stop you and someone who tells someone else about wanting to die wants someone to stop them, plain and simple, they have reached that last corner of desperation, they need that to hold on, they need to know someone wants them alive. It is sad Mal, really sad and definitely not something for either of us to understand, but other people's lives and other people's minds are something I don't feel should be judged. I don't know what someone went through to be who they are today. No one can know what drove a person to saying such a thing as "I want to kill myself" except for that person, Just like no one can know why people actually DO kill themselves.