[Private to Raiel]unluckymelodyMarch 29 2009, 08:02:56 UTC
I know, but- if he did care about me, you think it might show at some point! All he ever does is yell at me and call me names and act like he hates me! I have feelings! I'm not just some- some stupid doll that he can throw away all the time and then pick up whenever he needs me!
He never even picks me up. I always have to get up by myself.
[Private to Raiel]unluckymelodyMarch 29 2009, 08:15:02 UTC
...I know that, Raiel. But I am getting hurt.
He's not even going to apologize for what he said to me, is he? He won't, not even if I want to make up with him. I'll have to pretend like it doesn't hurt my feelings and just put up with it until he does it again.
I know he's a good person. Why can't he just be a good person to me?
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you know you shouldn't let him get to you like that, flute.
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I just...
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no matter what he says, you're very important to him.
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Maybe it was that he wanted me to leave him alone.
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he does it because he's afraid.
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He never even picks me up. I always have to get up by myself.
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he pushes you away because he's afraid you'll get hurt if you get too close. he's always been that way.
the only way to deal with it is to push back.
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He's not even going to apologize for what he said to me, is he? He won't, not even if I want to make up with him. I'll have to pretend like it doesn't hurt my feelings and just put up with it until he does it again.
I know he's a good person. Why can't he just be a good person to me?
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i'll talk to him.
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It's okay if he feels however he feels about me, really. I don't want to change his mind or anything. I just want him to be happy.
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but he doesn't think he's allowed to be happy.
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I guess... just tell me what he says.
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i can't...do it any time soon, though. i really hurt him.
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