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its been roughly since the dinosaurs walked that i made an entry.
and a lot has gone on, i just have been to lazy [though no one cared] about what was going on with me.
i had a boyfriend. he was nice. i had moved out.
things are never perfect. don't let them deceive you.
he had a seizure.
he didn't talk to me.
we broke up? or so i think...i'll just assume and you can't tell me not to [you didn't see what i saw]
i gained and lost some things
i WAS happy.hopeful.self-confident.
i WAS angry.jealous.self-destructive.
whats left?
angry.jealous.hopeful.self-confident.self-destructive.
i started writing again [not that it matters]
i'm suspended [and dropping out a.s.a.p]
i'm highly considering [once i pass my G.E.D] going to Empire with Ashley.
i feel like shit.
i wasn't there when she needed me.
she says she doesn't care.
"prescripted forgiveness"
i still don't feel justified
i wasn't there.
i.am.shit.
nonetheless, single again. back at home. making plans that i lack the ambition to fulfill.
heres something i wrote last night [in case you care]:
it overwhelms me
as i lean forward,
i can't hold it in anymore.
i release
as everything i've kept down comes rushing up
i realize
some things never change.
and a lot has gone on, i just have been to lazy [though no one cared] about what was going on with me.
i had a boyfriend. he was nice. i had moved out.
things are never perfect. don't let them deceive you.
he had a seizure.
he didn't talk to me.
we broke up? or so i think...i'll just assume and you can't tell me not to [you didn't see what i saw]
i gained and lost some things
i WAS happy.hopeful.self-confident.
i WAS angry.jealous.self-destructive.
whats left?
angry.jealous.hopeful.self-confident.self-destructive.
i started writing again [not that it matters]
i'm suspended [and dropping out a.s.a.p]
i'm highly considering [once i pass my G.E.D] going to Empire with Ashley.
i feel like shit.
i wasn't there when she needed me.
she says she doesn't care.
"prescripted forgiveness"
i still don't feel justified
i wasn't there.
i.am.shit.
nonetheless, single again. back at home. making plans that i lack the ambition to fulfill.
heres something i wrote last night [in case you care]:
it overwhelms me
as i lean forward,
i can't hold it in anymore.
i release
as everything i've kept down comes rushing up
i realize
some things never change.