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I fuckin love this picture. Chris sent it to me today, its from New Years. When things were still going fairly smoothly. It looks like we actually really care about each other. I dunno it made me cry. Not tears of like sadness or happyness...it just filled me with emotion. I want him to look at me like that again. For him to get out of the slump hes been in. Between his mood, things not going how i planned, not being in school, not having much to do, ive been real fuckin depressed. Not much motivation for anything. To me the future looks dark and to far away. Somethings lacking, something is missing...Im pretty sure i know what it is but i will never admit it. So im just gonna suffer. Oh yea i stopped smoking (stoggies) kinda...work kills me though so its getting harder.