THiS iS GOiNG TO BE A LONG 5 MONTHS ..
SO .. no one really knows how hard this is for me. For those of you who dont know, my boyfriend of 2 months has gone away to Mexico to visit his family. He is going to be like 5 or 6 months there .. and it has only been the first like 3 days and I really didnt know how much it was going to kill me inside. They say you never know what you have until you lose it, well its true, even thought i know hes going to come back it still hurts so much and like everything reminds me of him and when im by myself I have no choice but to cry. I dont care what anyone says but he was like the best boyfriend i ever had, he made me happy like no one else did, and we did everything together, and i miss sleeping with him the most. We always cuddled and it was so cute, and now im back to doing everything alone again, and it sucks and i miss him so much. I wrote him a letter last night and i want to mail it today. I think I am going to call, I was going to today but im scared to, its not like calling his house you gotta call a calling center and leave a message! AND OF COURSE YOU GOTTA DO IT ALL IN SPANISH! Tomorrow is my 2 month Anniversary with Ivan <3 I miss him so much! I hope I make it through this .. I'm going to need friends now more than EVER! I love you Ivan.