FUCK IT
i am so damn sick of my mother throwing eric up in my face,yes i know i fucked up and it was the biggest mistake of my life,but if she didnt go to jail and leave me with him that night would have never happened...i was 14,i didnt know what the hell i was doing...he was like my best friend,i wanted to be loved,i wanted to feel....something im not sure what.he was all i had at that time,i was lost and had no where to go.all it caused was feelings of pain,i felt like a whore,a slut....when it all happened everyone thought i was happy when we were together,i was scared. i know it was an awful mistake but i cant change what happened,but isnt all the shit ive been through involving it enough? must she throw it up in my face every FUCKING day?? it is her fault,she said she knew he wanted in my pants long before she left me with him,if so why the hell did she do it? i was 14,i thought of him like my big brother....he thought of me as a vaunerable little girl he could take advantage of,and did. i was so stupid,and i will NEVER EVER be the same again....isnt that enough? apparently not. i am so fucking sick of her whoring ass,she pisses me off so damn much but more than anything,she tears me apart everytime she talks about it and makes me feel lower everytime. FUCK HER,she wants to be a bitch,fine i will be a bitch just as well right back...let the games begin.