Sincerely Yours CH.10
Title: Sincerely Yours
Pairing: Yamajima
Author: Keanne (keannegirl01 )
Rating: PG
Summary: Yamada was marrying Takaki but the latter wasn’t present on their important day. And then Yuto came, a guy whom he didn’t know who made all things harder for him.
A/N: Because I am having a hiatus, I am leaving you dear readers with a chapter.
CHAPTER 10
After all those sweet things that Yuto had done to Yamada seemed like it didn’t happen. Yuto had gone colder, even ignoring his calls or sometimes, when he picks up, Yamada seemed like he was only having a monologue. And he was hurting.
He wanted to talk about it with Yuto. What had he done? Did he do anything wrong? Was there any problem of Yuto about his family? He just wanted to help. That’s all. And not to be ignored like he didn’t even exist in his life.
Sighing, Yamada cleaned up the vases in his room that was already full with dry flowers. Yes, they already dried up because Yuto wasn’t sending him a new one anymore. Gone were the dates, flowers and chocolates every day.
Having picked up all the dried flowers, he then threw it up to the trash can in his room. He had been the one doing the cleaning up in his room for almost three days. And speaking of three days, it has also been those days that he had not talked with Yuto. And, one thing was that, Chinen Yuri wasn’t around anymore.
The last time he saw him was when he asked for permission on having a day off and that was three days ago. He wondered where have the guy went that made him unable to go back for days. He just shrugged it off, thinking Chinen needed a week of day off.
Still waiting for Yuto’s call, Yamada just stayed sitting on his room’s balcony and kept on watching his phone. To be honest, he knew that no more calls from Yuto will come. He sighed and clutched his phone tightly. “Yuto, why are you doing this to me?” He asked his self and he didn’t come up with a single answer.
He found his self dialing Yuto’s number. He needed to know why he was acting like that. He just cannot go on guessing about it and think that everything was fine. Clearly enough, it wasn’t.
The other line rung and he felt his heart palpitating so much. He missed Yuto’s cheerful voice on the phone. He missed their sweet talks. He simply missed Yuto. “Hello?” Yuto said on the other line.
He cleared his throat before answering. “Y-Yuto, we need to talk.” He said at last. “You have been ignoring me and you were really acting so cold. Don’t you care about us anymore?” He added as he failed to hide the bitterness in his voice.
There was a pregnant pause and Yamada felt like he was waiting for an eternity to hear Yuto’s answer. “Okay. Meet me in my place tonight.”
That was it. That was all Yuto said. Then the other line was cut.
Yamada wondered if he did the right thing. He wasn’t ready to hear Yuto’s side but he needed to know. His heart was still afraid of getting hurt but he needed to be strong. Yuto owned his heart now and there was nothing he could do to stop it anymore. One thing he could ask is that… never to be hurt because of loving anymore.
He was tired of everything and Yuto was there, mending his heart without him knowing. Yuto was there all those times he was weeping for his loss over Takaki. But now, he cannot think of losing Yuto. Yuto was everything to him, just like Takaki used to be.
With the thought of losing Yuto, he got teary-eyed immediately. He felt his heart being heavy. Still clutching his phone, he closed his eyes and wished that what he was thinking was wrong.
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Arriving outside Yuto’s house, Yamada readied his self. He heaved a deep breath and bit his lower lip. Knocking to the door, his heart was beating widely. It jumped off from his chest as it was opened and Yuto’s face was revealed.
He tried giving a smile but Yuto just continued staring at him coldly and opened the door widely, a signal for him to come inside. He still smiled as he entered and studied Yuto’s face. He was like he hasn’t sleep for days. His eyebags were dark, circling his eyes. His eyes looked tired and he had gone thinner than ever. It was obvious he did not have enough rest. Just what was going on?
Before he could take a seat, Yuto grabbed his arm and stared at him furiously. “Was there any peculiar things going on in your house?” He asked with such big eyes.
Yamada swallowed hard and looked at Yuto with disbelief and confusion. Why was he acting like that? “N-Nothing.”
“How about your maids? Are they still there?” Yuto asked again, still not letting his arm go.
He nodded but suddenly remembered Chinen. “Chinen was gone for days already.” He said.
He felt Yuto’s grip on his arm tightening. It was already hurting him. “Y-Yuto, t-that hurts…” He said as he tried grabbing his arm slowly. But Yuto just didn’t want it to let go. Instead he was pushed to the nearest wall.
“You do not know anything of being hurt, Ryosuke. You do not know a thing.” Yuto said, gritting his teeth. His eyes were wide, as if ready to ravage his all being.
“Wh-what are you trying to say, Yuto?” Yamada asked as he hissed from the pain. But there was nothing painful than hearing Yuto calling him with his first name. “Why are you doing this to me? What about us?” He asked as his tears started forming in his eyes. “You ignored me for days and now that I’m here, you’re hurting me.”
Yuto let him go and stared at him with a grim on his face. “There was no ‘us’, Ryosuke.” He clarified. “It was only your selfishness, thinking you owned me. Don’t you know I was hurting so much while being on your side? But I needed to stay! I didn’t have a choice. I was hurting more than you. I was tired of pretending that I love you so much. That I couldn’t live without you when truthfully, my heart is full of hatred for a selfish person like you.”
The tears that Yamada was trying to hold in were already flowing on his cheeks as he heard those words. So were all those lies? Were they just lies? Yes, their relationship was only a lie. All of them. “I-I’m sorry-“
“Sorry!?” Yuto shouted as he widened his eyes again and pushed Yamada to the wall. “Everything has been done and I couldn’t do anything about it. The damaged has been done and there was already a sacrifice. All because of your selfishness. Yamada Ryosuke.”
“When was I selfish, Yuto? Just when did I act like that? I-“
“You kept on acting as though you can have everything in the world.” Yuto snorted and continued, “Including me. Including Takaki!” Yuto said as he pulled Yamada’s hair this time. He pulled it harder and Yamada just couldn’t help crying in pain and closing his eyes.
“W-why are you acting like this…” Yamada said as he begged Yuto to stop. He was hurting all over his body suddenly. His tears were unstoppable and he was shaking.
“You killed Chinen. He committed suicide.” Yuto stated with so much hate in his eyes. His voice was firm and deep.
Yamada shivered as he stayed looking at them. His heart was broken into pieces, hearing it. He didn’t know a thing and he didn’t do a thing to Chinen! He was only having his day off, right?
“He’s the only guy I ever love.” Yuto added as he pushed Yamada to the floor. “You killed the only person I love so much! You took away my only happiness, Ryosuke!”
Yamada fell hard on the floor and again, he felt so hurt. His arm was even bleeding. But nothing could hurt him even more hearing the truth that Yuto was in love with Chinen.
A/N: How was it? I did mention before that I am very excited for chapter 10. This is it. Kekeke. That start. XD /shot. Hope you had fun reading though~ then feel free to leave your guesses too. XD I will be back next week with a new chapter!