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Man, i'm soooo freak'n lost. I just went to lyndsey's house, yesterday, and i thought we had a pretty good time. I even found out that i'm on the cheerleading squad.... :) i was pretty happy i guess. I didn't really want to do it, but then again i did want to do it. I don't know what to do. I wanted to do it because i knew Lyndsey would be there, ya know. Then she got mad at me. I still don't even know why. I mean, i think she was saying i was talking about her behind her back, but i didn't say ANYTHING bad about her. She is one of my closest friends, so i'm absolutly at a loss of words of why she would EVER think i'd talk about her, and behind her back at that. It's all DJ's fault i bet. He was trying to prove his point that she was two faced. So i think he was trying to make her mad at me and Candice (can't speak for candice though cuz i honestly don't know whether or not she said anything, i mean, i don't even talk to her that often.):( Man, there is so much crap right now, i can't even handle it. I'm being treated like a puppet by mother, i mean she's all " I'm going to use this cheerleading thing against you for the REST OF YOUR LIFE **evil cackle**" I was just like, wow, she REALLY doesn't need anymore power. Man, i should have just been in florida. This all would have never happened. Man, i can't even go visit my best friend now because i'm doing the cheerleading thingy. It's all such bull. I have no job, no one to babysitt, and even Maria and "sweet innocent Jessica" have truned pshyco on me. They're acting all distent and haven't called or anything. And it's not just to me, it's to all of their friends. I really don't particularly like Marietta. It's just..... not a very fun place. Everything that can go wrong, does go wrong. Every person that is trust worthy, doesn't trust you. It's just weird. The boys think they're God's freaking gift to the world, and the ones that think that the most are the ones that are the least specail... well they're special; in the head! Man, how much more raunchy can life get. I don't know how the rest of the squad is going to feel about the second rate cheerleader droping in all crazily.... GOD PLEASE DON'T LET THIS BE A LAST YEAR REPEAT. My goodness, i wonder how things are going to be now, and during school. Everyone has changed SOOO much. I saw a picture of Eugene from the the sixth grade. That was probably the funniest, cutest, craziest thing i've seen in a while. It absolutly amazed me how much that boi, and everyone, had changed in just 3 years. There are so manythings i'd like to do, or see, or be, but because of who i am now, there is no way i can even do those things because people wouldn't aprove
. life is a mess....
. life is a mess....