Extension
So as most of you know I applied for an extension for my program. This would mean I would come home in January for hopefuly a week or 2 but then I would come back to Orlando until May 11. And I was kind fo excited about that idea because I really don't feel like I've had enough time here. I like living somewhat on my own. I love being here. With these people. But if I stay here longer, I'm kind of afraid I'll become too accustomed to life here and I either won't want to go home or will jusut be miserable when I do. I don't really think that will happen, its juts I think a lot. You guys know that. Thats the thing though, I miss people who know me. Here people have awkward silences because we don't know what to say to each other because we don;t know everything about each other. With you guys it's like silences are never awkward. You guys know what I need, how to make me smile, my rollercoaster moods, and you're still around. And I wish I was there because I love my friends and my family and just home and all the people and things that make me feel at home. And I miss that. But at the same time here I got a fresh start, I was my own individual person with my own story and somehow that's interesting because everybody here is from literally everywhere and we all want to learn so much about each other. And I like occasionally stepping out of my comfort zone and being really happy when I survived that first step. And this was a massive step. I'm glad I learned that I'm actually ok being away from home and even if its just waking up at 2 in the afternoon and going to work, I feel like I'm doing something and thats good. I hate when I feel like I waste my time. I feel like I wasted 3 years of high school because I didn't make the most out of it. I barely made anything out of it. Granted I'm so lucky to have met most of you there, I should have done more than make friends in 3 years. And I'm afraid that if I come home now I might juts go back to sleeping and working and thats not what I want. Here I actually have just the slightest bit of motivation and that is something truly amazing for me. I came here to get an idea of what I want to do with my life and what I want to go to college for and working at downtown disney has definately not really helped with that. I know I like working in retail, its easy, oh boy. So what if my life plans fall through that's where I'll go. But other than that nothing. My plan was to stay here until May and work in a different field at a different location; try something different and see how I like it. Well, I got my extension....approved for working where I am now. So unless I get a character, I'm stuck where I am until May if I accept the extension. I dont think my chances or getting a character are extremely high so I don't want to be counting on just that. So I'm really not sure what I want to do. Plus the whole not having a car here is a serious pain. And even if I extend now I plan on coming back for a semester in college to do the college program because they have more opportunities than the careerstart kids in fields I'm more interested in. So basically my story is that I have until December 2nd to make a decision. I want to talk to my managers about being moved and hopefully decide something sometime soon. Thats about my whole story. If you have any thoughts please share.
Also today my friend Danielle took me to Property Control and Company D which are 2 Disney stores for cast members where they sell damaged stuff (most of which can be fixed) or juts stuff they dont sell in stores anymore. I went crazy, omg, amazing. I definately spent just under $100. whoops. but its okay because my roommate that owned me $100 finally paid me back today. But the best part is that I started my Christmas shopping which is always exciting :)
And currently I look diseased/reptile-ish/stoned. So the eye with the thing that I cant spell but you know what I mean, now its grossly dry around that eye really badly and my other one kind of and all around my eyes is all red, its gross. So depending on when I wake up tomorrow I'm going to go to the doctor's tomorrow and get that checked out because I'm thinking/hoping I'm just allergic to something. Idk. It's gross though. I havent worn eyeliner in about a month now. since I got back from my visit home.
Anyways, I;m sorry I dont update more but I do love and miss you guys a lot ♥
Also today my friend Danielle took me to Property Control and Company D which are 2 Disney stores for cast members where they sell damaged stuff (most of which can be fixed) or juts stuff they dont sell in stores anymore. I went crazy, omg, amazing. I definately spent just under $100. whoops. but its okay because my roommate that owned me $100 finally paid me back today. But the best part is that I started my Christmas shopping which is always exciting :)
And currently I look diseased/reptile-ish/stoned. So the eye with the thing that I cant spell but you know what I mean, now its grossly dry around that eye really badly and my other one kind of and all around my eyes is all red, its gross. So depending on when I wake up tomorrow I'm going to go to the doctor's tomorrow and get that checked out because I'm thinking/hoping I'm just allergic to something. Idk. It's gross though. I havent worn eyeliner in about a month now. since I got back from my visit home.
Anyways, I;m sorry I dont update more but I do love and miss you guys a lot ♥