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well......
this weekend was a lot of fun. spent it in ft myers with will erin and doug.
awesome peoples. wow makes me wanna stab stuff lol. I dont get internet connection there, or anywhere other than home these days. I need to talk to jesse about that.
I dont know what to do. I talked to jc this weekend...well sorta. we were texting. I said hi and he actually replied. we held a convo for a bit. it was shocking. haha
he said he might be comming to tampa this summer. like for the summer. and i dont know what to do. I love him. I'm in love with him. but he told me he didnt love me and didnt want me and shit. but if he really didnt want to see me or anything why would he tell me hes comming to tampa. what if he wants to see me. and changes his mind about everything...wants me back.
I dont want to get involved with someone if that has a chance of happening. I dont want to hurt someone else so I can be happy.
I like will a lot. and he likes me but I dont want to hurt him. and I dont want to hurt myself. and i know I will do one or both if i get involved and then jc comes back. I tried to ask him if I should hold on to hope, or move on. but he didn't answer me. he never replys to me if i try to talk about anything involving "us". and i dont know what that means.
I mean if he didnt want to be with me...ever...wouldn't he just tell me to move on? that why i keep thinking there mioght be a chance. I'm so dumb. ugh.
also will is still in love with his ex anyway. so it's whatever. shes gone, but he holds on. we're both dumb.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE JEFFERSON CHALMERS FRAZER-MOUNTS!!!! suck ya know. really it does.
this weekend was a lot of fun. spent it in ft myers with will erin and doug.
awesome peoples. wow makes me wanna stab stuff lol. I dont get internet connection there, or anywhere other than home these days. I need to talk to jesse about that.
I dont know what to do. I talked to jc this weekend...well sorta. we were texting. I said hi and he actually replied. we held a convo for a bit. it was shocking. haha
he said he might be comming to tampa this summer. like for the summer. and i dont know what to do. I love him. I'm in love with him. but he told me he didnt love me and didnt want me and shit. but if he really didnt want to see me or anything why would he tell me hes comming to tampa. what if he wants to see me. and changes his mind about everything...wants me back.
I dont want to get involved with someone if that has a chance of happening. I dont want to hurt someone else so I can be happy.
I like will a lot. and he likes me but I dont want to hurt him. and I dont want to hurt myself. and i know I will do one or both if i get involved and then jc comes back. I tried to ask him if I should hold on to hope, or move on. but he didn't answer me. he never replys to me if i try to talk about anything involving "us". and i dont know what that means.
I mean if he didnt want to be with me...ever...wouldn't he just tell me to move on? that why i keep thinking there mioght be a chance. I'm so dumb. ugh.
also will is still in love with his ex anyway. so it's whatever. shes gone, but he holds on. we're both dumb.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE JEFFERSON CHALMERS FRAZER-MOUNTS!!!! suck ya know. really it does.