maybe he'll notice her now?
Okay been gone over a year... let's have a recap.
Things were good with Cody til June when I caught him in a hotel room with another girl. Met this marine named Clint in July. Talked to him until me and a few friends went to the Carolinas to visit him in August. Started dating... he broke up with me in January of 07 because he thought I would cheat on him while he was in Iraq. Whatever, slowly stopped talking to him. Met Antonio through my best friend Justine in Feb/March. Started dating him in May. It is now August and we're still together. We're living with his friend Eric and my friend Jessika. The timing with all off us needing new places to live just fit together, so here we are. Seems a little fast, but its been working so far. Anyway, thats a very long story short.
I don't know what it is. I'm happier with the way everything is going lately, with school and such. The problems aren't solved yet but I've stopped worrying so much about them. On the other hand... something still bothers me. Except it's something with him.
I still can't help but wonder where it's all going. We skyrocketed at the beginning... but now it just seems to either stay the same or go down hill. He's not as affectionate. I don't feel very important. It sounds selfish, but I can't explain it very well. I'm just not happy. I almost want a break. I almost want to sleep alone for a few nights to see if absence really makes the heart grow fond. I LOVE HIM, and he doesn't love me back and it doesn't seem to be heading that way at all. I don't know what to do! I just don't want to fall asleep with tears in my eyes anymore. I want tof all asleep in his arms with a smile on my face.