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[unknwnsoul]

Yesterday was one of the very few nice days we've had in a few months...and I was stuck in work. But, today I am work-less and full of emptied energy. I'm about to leave for school, which soon ends. I can feel myself getting more impatient as the days pass. I have realized that I am a useless being. All I do is smoke, work, sleep, and go to

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[anonymous]

So for school i had to read thru LiveJournals and bring one to class that sparks up some interest. Needless to say, I'm tryin to get this done as effortlessly as possible so click on the Search-Random option... and here you come up. Weird right? .... for you that is. I mean, if i were on your end I'd be stunned that my personal thoughts were being exposed... almost like an exhibit. Makes you feel kinda important doesn't it? ...

Anywho, don't feel useless. Just don't. So yeah you smoke... and it seems like it's a never ending tunnel as you look towards the longevity of it, but ... don't you think soon enough you'll just pass thru it like every other phase in life?

It's ironic how i can advise you to not feel useless... when i'm here ... feeling useless myself. It seems to me as if life's just passing me by, and i'm simply numb to it. I really feel as if I have no enthusiasm for anything that's NOT tangible... I don't know if you can understand that. But it's like, unless i'm interacting with someone and spending time with those i love the most, or doodling, or crafting or writing down my thoughts, or reading into lyrics ... or any of the simple things in life that make me happy... i'm not. I don't like having to study and only having "it'll pay off in the end" - as motivation. It's not tangible. And so i don't ... and so pretty soon i'm bound to lose my scholarship, forced to go to a community college.. and inevitably find that enthusiasm i've been looking for all along.... just in time right? Maybe since i really never felt i worked for where i am, it was just handed to me in a silver platter, innate brains, i have no real attachment to it. You get me ? But once this comfort level is taken away... and i have to fight my way back.. then my true potential will show. right...? I dunno. w/e

Anywho, i'm not a livejournal user... but if you wanna respond or just know more about the person who randomly stumbled upon you here's my homepage (which I'm proud to say, for some odd reason, i had to set up for another course i'm taking)

www.umsis.miami.edu/~jcajina