so...

[unknownonlooker]

i realized why i never joined stuff the first yr in college. i didn't want to have to say goodbye. after a very successful wrap of the show, i've come to find myself missing the long hours and me yelling at people, and the sleepless nights. i miss seeing the same people everyday and going to school with a sense of purpose other than gettin an education. sad. the seniors cried. surprisingly i've become more close to them in the past month than i have with half the people in my department. (btw i did get into my department)the very last scene with our closing words, my friend mel was choking up, at first i thought the death scene we did must have really got to her, but she was crying becuz she realized that this was the end. that it was the end of four painful years of exams and stress, and the beginning of her life outside of the comforts of college life. what makes me feel even worse was i didn't even try to get to know the people in my own grade in the play, i was having so much fun being invited to all the cool older kid stuff, that i didn't try to bond with the people i'll be stuck with. and now my new friends will be off to med school and their new jobs. while i have to make new friends AGAIN! plus my plan for graduating a year earlier has been ruined by classes having to be taken sequentially and prereq. So next fall i'll be takin 2 department classes and italian. hopefully.
i'll be workin all summer and i'm tryin to get a job w/ my friend catering. also in september i'll be goin back to france and italy for 13 days...I'm soooooo excited!