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Guess what? I am still alive. I know, I know, Im sure you all(all 2 or 3 of you that may keep up with my journal) were wondering. But tis true-alive, just as sorta healthy as ever, and *no longer living out of my car*. m working at Gosh! Downtown, its a super yummy sushi place here in Lakeland and yep. Im dating someone and in general thats going great, though at thisparticular moment in time I don't know what the fuck hes thinking and maybe its only been going well on my end and holy shit I just...ugh...it makes me feel ill when I think about it because he hasn't spoken to me in a couple days and get this-we work together. So all last night I got to have him not look at me or speak to me-except to say 'Im not mad, but we are going to have a talk. There are some thing that need to be said but I dont feel like saying them right now", so I ask if its like, is he breaking up with me? and he says its not that but he has some things he needs to get off his chest. Granted, I stayed out all night at a party and told him I would be home at a decent hour and that turned out to not be true-it was inconsiderate of me to do so. yes. I know that. I apologized. Im not sure why that drove him over the egde, or what else he has been unhappy with and hes just not said anything. Why wont people speak the fuck up when something bothers them??? is it that bloody difficult to say something? if you really want a relationship to survive you have to communicate! its not rocket science, it can be work sure, but its not that difficult to just speak up.
::breathe kayla breathe::
well my getting back on here has turned into me ranting. Thats proly how it will always turn out. I will never turn to you, deal LJ, if things are going well, but I expect you to be here when they arent.
Also dont feel like updating my Twitter or Facebook status with a string of curse words but let it be known IU want to kick him in the balls for not speaking to me and I would like to yell and scream a bunch of obscenities... regardless of whatever it is that Ive done to him its not cool to just ignore your loved one for two days. right?
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::breathe kayla breathe::
well my getting back on here has turned into me ranting. Thats proly how it will always turn out. I will never turn to you, deal LJ, if things are going well, but I expect you to be here when they arent.
Also dont feel like updating my Twitter or Facebook status with a string of curse words but let it be known IU want to kick him in the balls for not speaking to me and I would like to yell and scream a bunch of obscenities... regardless of whatever it is that Ive done to him its not cool to just ignore your loved one for two days. right?
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