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So whats been going on? well, a bunch I guess-when it rains it pours ya know?
Took my laundry to Southside Cleaners b/c I thought they did wash and fold.
They dont, tried to charge me $160 and now after Ive huffed and puffed theyre charging me $50, which is stilloutrageous as the clothes are barely worth that much but I need my clothes back so I'll do it.
One of the girls in my dance troupe died. I barely knew her, as she was very new. that makes it even more awkward.
Ive been downsized from my job at Barrow,Powers, & Noble. So uh, I have two weeks to find another afternoon job. I could get a full time job at Wachovia-but I really don't think I'd enjoy it. If I can find another decent paying job to replace this one Ill go that route, if not then I may have to go to one full timer like Wachovia. Still, being fired is no fun-and it came out of the blue which made it even worse.
I have to move in a little over a month, and I do not have the money saved up. I may have to move back into my parents for a couple months, which will pretty much make me want to shoot myself(again). This plus the losing one of my jobs is kinda making me panic.
panic alot.
I took myself out of one of the dance shows so I could have a weekend off. Im sure omething will happen to prevent that though.
John has been gone since last Thursday, so I cant even call him and whine(hes in the middle of the desert so no cell phones).
I had a sad dream last night involving Jared. gah. Saw him at the car show, well, I saw him-I dont think he saw me. And I dont remember exactly what the dream was about, but it was sad and I woke up sad and thinking about it is putting me in a sad mood(also cleaming out my desk had me in an already sad mood).
bah. my depression is worse too. I dont know if its my bc pills or if its just me, so Im going to switch pills and see how that does. the whole being depressed thing just really does not help things esp when I already feellike theyre falling apart.
I just want this year to be over with. Is that so weird? I figure by next year I should have a place to live, a stable job envirnoment, and the dance co. wont be so busy. possibly I can spend more than a full day with John. consecutively.
I think I may have to go buy a brownie on my break, maybe pair it with a vanilla shake.
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Took my laundry to Southside Cleaners b/c I thought they did wash and fold.
They dont, tried to charge me $160 and now after Ive huffed and puffed theyre charging me $50, which is stilloutrageous as the clothes are barely worth that much but I need my clothes back so I'll do it.
One of the girls in my dance troupe died. I barely knew her, as she was very new. that makes it even more awkward.
Ive been downsized from my job at Barrow,Powers, & Noble. So uh, I have two weeks to find another afternoon job. I could get a full time job at Wachovia-but I really don't think I'd enjoy it. If I can find another decent paying job to replace this one Ill go that route, if not then I may have to go to one full timer like Wachovia. Still, being fired is no fun-and it came out of the blue which made it even worse.
I have to move in a little over a month, and I do not have the money saved up. I may have to move back into my parents for a couple months, which will pretty much make me want to shoot myself(again). This plus the losing one of my jobs is kinda making me panic.
panic alot.
I took myself out of one of the dance shows so I could have a weekend off. Im sure omething will happen to prevent that though.
John has been gone since last Thursday, so I cant even call him and whine(hes in the middle of the desert so no cell phones).
I had a sad dream last night involving Jared. gah. Saw him at the car show, well, I saw him-I dont think he saw me. And I dont remember exactly what the dream was about, but it was sad and I woke up sad and thinking about it is putting me in a sad mood(also cleaming out my desk had me in an already sad mood).
bah. my depression is worse too. I dont know if its my bc pills or if its just me, so Im going to switch pills and see how that does. the whole being depressed thing just really does not help things esp when I already feellike theyre falling apart.
I just want this year to be over with. Is that so weird? I figure by next year I should have a place to live, a stable job envirnoment, and the dance co. wont be so busy. possibly I can spend more than a full day with John. consecutively.
I think I may have to go buy a brownie on my break, maybe pair it with a vanilla shake.
*x*x*