no clue
Ate last at 7 something in the morning going to see how long I can go. No scale so only indicator his pants which are not yet.I have no clue what I'm doing. Moving in this soon was unexpected I feel unwanted. I hope she text back but she has not doubt she will. I hope he's not lying it will kill me all this stress is. I have to find somewhere to give kids bath. Thinking of only being here till summer then finding another place. Mat told me I could come stay with him with my kids might do that. Might break me and kyle up but I don't want to feel like I got to walk on egg shells. I'm scared to death. Where meant to be here only for a little bit but makes me feel like asap get out. But nothing is going to work kyle can't pay bills by himself I can't get a job no one will hire me because of the stealing incident almost 10 years ago. I'm so fucked up I'm one step away from admitting my self. But food now I will starve works better