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So the past few months worth of anxiety and stress have just hit me like a brick.
All I hear at home these days is "you seem depressed, whats wrong?"
Christ I just need something to work out for once...
I went in to her work to talk to her today... I got too nervous and ended up buying 2 CDs to not seem like such an idiot... But I feel shitty that I can't even find a reason to talk to her, I feel awkward and I'm sure she does too... And that is the last thing I want.
"Do you ever wish you could go back, with all the knowledge and experience you have now?"
YES
It's so easy to play the victim and almost as easy to take all the blame... I'm doing both and it's killing me.
All my thought is on her, All my dreams, All my effort, All my motivation, She is the question and the answer.
All I hear at home these days is "you seem depressed, whats wrong?"
Christ I just need something to work out for once...
I went in to her work to talk to her today... I got too nervous and ended up buying 2 CDs to not seem like such an idiot... But I feel shitty that I can't even find a reason to talk to her, I feel awkward and I'm sure she does too... And that is the last thing I want.
"Do you ever wish you could go back, with all the knowledge and experience you have now?"
YES
It's so easy to play the victim and almost as easy to take all the blame... I'm doing both and it's killing me.
All my thought is on her, All my dreams, All my effort, All my motivation, She is the question and the answer.