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I don't want to talk to anyone anymore.... It just seems like a waste of my time and my voice.
I'm not going to be on AIM, Or talk on the phone, No E-Mails will be sent and I will not see anyone except my sister's and people at school.
So this is going to the last update for a while....So I better make the most of it.
It feels like I have no one now...My friends are not trustworthy anymore and it just seems like everyone's trying to destroy eachother and I'm sick of it.
My father think's I am a peice of shit, I wish he just gave me up for adoption when I was younger then I wouldn't have to be here...Near him....Near my sisters...Near the people that I love and my friends, I would do anything for them.
I JUST WANT TO GET AWAY!!
I want to get away from all the shit that has gone wrong in my life...I don't want to even be me anymore...
I wish my father was still the same person from all my childhood memories... But the old him is long gone...along with myself.
I wish I never knew or ever saw my mother...she's caused way too much pain in my life, All the broken promises... All the times I saw her bieng in the back of a police car...All the times I saw her Drunk and stoned...All the times than she said that she would stop or try and get help... All the times she let down her daughters.
I Hate Julia for cheating on my dad and convincing that they are his daughters...You are the home wrecker! . I love my sister's and I don't Julia to take them away from my family...I hate Seeing my dad hurt and Depressed...It hurts so much
Patty is the only person who makes my dad happy,She's a good person and she knows how to talk to My sister's and I. She makes us feel happy like when we were younger and when My dad would actually laugh and play around with us...I like her because she know's what we've been through, and she know's how to make us feel better.
MY LIFE IS FAR FROM PERFECT AND I DON'T WHAT TO DO ANYMORE
I HATE THE PERSON WHO I'VE BECOME!