would you kill me if I say please?
why do I feel happy yet sad at the same time?
I just want to be able to wake up and be happy with my life
and feel that there's something to live for.
I want that stake removed from my heart.
If I cry I want it to be out of happiness, not depression or loneliness.
When I smile I want it to be real, not just a face I put on so people think I'm okay.
I want to tell my parents how much I appreciate everything they've done for me.
I want my few Friends to know I really value their friendship.
I wish I could be more generous and caring.
I wish I wasn't an asshole.
I wish I could sleep at night.
I wish...