Memories
i remeber the old times. a girl who i did not know yet was somehow dating.i saw her in the halls and said hey and tried to hold her hand and such. i remember getting out of to history to go meet her because i saw her walk by the door. we started talking and hit it off. that was the first time we held hands. previous i only talked to her online and from people saying i should go out with her. so i asked her and she said yes. so funni now loooking back on it. i remebr the first night" well second after dereks thing" at emily's. me and ryan went over there. me and and were good friends at this point and he liked anna. we talked about how we would do things and ryan had his two condoms in brown wrapping. i asked where he got them i he said he got them and a gas station. so we went to emily's and i met sarah. we drank and such and ryan got anna and they started drinking and so we all starting getting drunk. there was two pizza's from my knowledge.i made with sarah which what seemed like hours. anna and ryan were next to us on the same bed doing the same. i think the sex pistols were playing and that one song i thought was good to make out to but never remebered it.then somehow recess came on and it was the one with mikey and the evil bike. lmao , i still have no clue what that was about. then emily was getting angry so we walked to anna's i think and crashed there. i remember waking to sarah. i just put my arm around her and thought what a great night it was. to this day that is the greatest night of my life. me and ryan would soon spend almost every weekend with sarah anna. ryan had his girl and i had mine. getting drunk and listening to the misfits and iving jenna her pillow. waking up in an alley and then waking up at whittier. my god what great nights. how ryan and anna would call us while me and sarah were up stairs. we were ready to do it we wuld say. plus we always got the bed, they had the couch lol. all great night s and mornings. i remember when anna's mom came home and me ryan were trying to hide in the closet or when my step dad drove up and saw us at the gas station and i ran for no reason. i remember christams and christmas. we made lasagna with no pants and drunk. plus i thought me and anna were going to die. i remember having sarah come over and i would get things perfect. then we would just lay and make out. oh how we made out for hours. then i recall when i snuck her in a few times and her sleep over. how fun were those days. i wish they never would've ended. now i cry my self over and over with the tears melting away my face and my heart twist more crooked and crooked. and how to think all these moments occured when i asked sarah rieger if she wanted to go out. how simle that sentence is yet so complex. also having a best friend like ryan there to share everything i felt because the same was happening to him. now we are all differnet slpit up and it will never come back. it's because our lives are expanding. glue will never mend them together now only memories that last forever can bond people like that . now the bonding has come undone. and i weep to myself with the doves wings flapping over my head in the abyss i call life.