Its a choice you make every day of your life.
I am going to update Just for COurtney so she can have something to read on those late nights surfing the web for something to do! ha ha
SO not much has happened lately, besides the fact that i was sick and i almost broke my pelvis. Oh yea, And i almost forgot...
It all started Yesterday when we had a snow day and i figured i would catch up on come college stuff and home work from when i was out for like 3 day when i was sick. I didnt actually do anything for that but thats not the point. I was a nice day and i relaxed all day,and did some cleaning. Well it was like 3 hours befor i had to go to work and I was getting in the bath tub just to relax. So i am in the tub for about 15 min when Nick comes pounding on the door.
"your mom wants you to shovel the driveway so she can get up it when she comes home."
"well I am about to get in the shower i really cant"
"well you mom needs your help now you should go shovel"
"FINE!"
So i got up got dressed in warm clothes and i go outside and start shoveling the sidewalk to get to the drive way, seeings how i am not going to trudge all the way down my drive was when i would end up having to shovel the walkways anyways. i figured i could just kill two bird with one stone. BUt as i am getting to the steps i hear nick uyelling at me to go shovel the drive way.
"NO. You need to shovel the drive wasy your mom is on her way home now!"
"Nick i have to shovel this anyways to get to the drive way, not to mention i would have to shovel it anyways and i am not going to truge through snow and just pack it down when i have to shovel it ayways."
"Blah balh blah i suck go shovel the drive way"
Anyways I ignored him and finished what i was doing and shoveled the driveway
When my mom got home she helped me finish up and i went inside to get ready for work.
ON my way to work I was getting on the High way behid this guy who had a HUGE pile of snow on top of his car and i thought to my self wow that really dangerous i shouldnt be behind him. so luckly he switched lanes on the high way and he wasnt in from of me anymore. All of a sudden i feel my back end slipping like on balck ice or something and i start to fish tale in the middle of 93 south. Then my tale end tworled around. I did a 360 on the highways and i was facing a heard of on comming traffic. (I was still in movement) I did another 360 and my back drivers side of my car slammed into the gaurd rail on the bridge where the lake is. Right by where the high wasy slpits to go to 101 E and 93 S. After I slammed into the gaurd rail facing on comming traffic i bounced back around. I ended up facing the traffic flow. when my car stopped it went up on its two side wheels on my passenger side and i thought i was going over the gaurd rail. but i just fell back down on four wheels. IN that span of 10-20 second i saw my life flash before my eyes. I have never been so scared in my life. I jumped out of my car quickly to see if i was going to blow up or something and to see what the damage done to my car was. Asides from the drivers side back bumper being a little flat there is NO damage to my car. I was standing in the right lane of the high way with my car to my right shaking uncomtorlably. I though that I was going to die. I though that i was going to go over the gaurd rail into the late and die. two cars pulled over to see if i was ok. one was some lady in a van who helped my move my car out of the middle of the lane the other was the guy with alot of snow on his car. I got back in my car and slowly drove to the nearest exit and called work, my mom, bonnie and Trina. I parked at a Citgo station and waited for my mom. I swear when she go there i have never help her so close in my life. I didnt want to let go. For simply the fact that I almost lost her for ever. I was crying uncontrolably. AND I SWEAR TO GOD I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN MY LIFE! after a while I fallowed her to my work and i held her never wanting to let go. when i went into work i went up stairs and sat in a chair for about 15 min just trying to pull myself together and relax. when i finally got changed and clocked in i just sat in the office with Donita and courtney and cryed. Courtney left and i just cried harder wiht Donita telling her what happend. I couldnt pull myslef together I was probably up there for a good 45 min crying. I eventually wiped the smeared make up off my face and went down stairs. I worked basically a 6-11 shift. and when i went down i think courtney had told Jess Mike and Alice kinda what happened. The rest of the night i was really shook up but i tried to put my best foot forward and grin and bare it. Most of the night i laughed, and I think everyone at work that night for doing so. IT was a needed relief. When i had to drive home i have never EVER driven so slow in my life. I honestly didnt want to drive home but i didnt want to risk my mom comming to get me. even though she said she was going to i told her no.
I saw my life flash before my eyes, and one onf the worst this was the fact that it wasnt very long. When iwas spinning i wasnt scared, looking back on ti i was eeirly calm and relaxed. Even when i slammed into the gaurd rail it felt lie bumper cars. I wasnt trown about my car, it was almost as if i was being held in place in my seat. when i hit the gaurd rail i didnt move at all. my mom says my dad was watching over me. And in fout years since he died i never felt him, if you know what i mean. I never felt his presence. Until hyesterday. I felt as if he placed his hand over my body and kept me in place making sure nothing happened to me, making sure i would be ther for mom and i woudl live out my life.
And for once in a long time, i felt a weird feeling of being safe. I cant explain it. But i have never felt more safe in my life.
<3
SO not much has happened lately, besides the fact that i was sick and i almost broke my pelvis. Oh yea, And i almost forgot...
It all started Yesterday when we had a snow day and i figured i would catch up on come college stuff and home work from when i was out for like 3 day when i was sick. I didnt actually do anything for that but thats not the point. I was a nice day and i relaxed all day,and did some cleaning. Well it was like 3 hours befor i had to go to work and I was getting in the bath tub just to relax. So i am in the tub for about 15 min when Nick comes pounding on the door.
"your mom wants you to shovel the driveway so she can get up it when she comes home."
"well I am about to get in the shower i really cant"
"well you mom needs your help now you should go shovel"
"FINE!"
So i got up got dressed in warm clothes and i go outside and start shoveling the sidewalk to get to the drive way, seeings how i am not going to trudge all the way down my drive was when i would end up having to shovel the walkways anyways. i figured i could just kill two bird with one stone. BUt as i am getting to the steps i hear nick uyelling at me to go shovel the drive way.
"NO. You need to shovel the drive wasy your mom is on her way home now!"
"Nick i have to shovel this anyways to get to the drive way, not to mention i would have to shovel it anyways and i am not going to truge through snow and just pack it down when i have to shovel it ayways."
"Blah balh blah i suck go shovel the drive way"
Anyways I ignored him and finished what i was doing and shoveled the driveway
When my mom got home she helped me finish up and i went inside to get ready for work.
ON my way to work I was getting on the High way behid this guy who had a HUGE pile of snow on top of his car and i thought to my self wow that really dangerous i shouldnt be behind him. so luckly he switched lanes on the high way and he wasnt in from of me anymore. All of a sudden i feel my back end slipping like on balck ice or something and i start to fish tale in the middle of 93 south. Then my tale end tworled around. I did a 360 on the highways and i was facing a heard of on comming traffic. (I was still in movement) I did another 360 and my back drivers side of my car slammed into the gaurd rail on the bridge where the lake is. Right by where the high wasy slpits to go to 101 E and 93 S. After I slammed into the gaurd rail facing on comming traffic i bounced back around. I ended up facing the traffic flow. when my car stopped it went up on its two side wheels on my passenger side and i thought i was going over the gaurd rail. but i just fell back down on four wheels. IN that span of 10-20 second i saw my life flash before my eyes. I have never been so scared in my life. I jumped out of my car quickly to see if i was going to blow up or something and to see what the damage done to my car was. Asides from the drivers side back bumper being a little flat there is NO damage to my car. I was standing in the right lane of the high way with my car to my right shaking uncomtorlably. I though that I was going to die. I though that i was going to go over the gaurd rail into the late and die. two cars pulled over to see if i was ok. one was some lady in a van who helped my move my car out of the middle of the lane the other was the guy with alot of snow on his car. I got back in my car and slowly drove to the nearest exit and called work, my mom, bonnie and Trina. I parked at a Citgo station and waited for my mom. I swear when she go there i have never help her so close in my life. I didnt want to let go. For simply the fact that I almost lost her for ever. I was crying uncontrolably. AND I SWEAR TO GOD I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN MY LIFE! after a while I fallowed her to my work and i held her never wanting to let go. when i went into work i went up stairs and sat in a chair for about 15 min just trying to pull myself together and relax. when i finally got changed and clocked in i just sat in the office with Donita and courtney and cryed. Courtney left and i just cried harder wiht Donita telling her what happend. I couldnt pull myslef together I was probably up there for a good 45 min crying. I eventually wiped the smeared make up off my face and went down stairs. I worked basically a 6-11 shift. and when i went down i think courtney had told Jess Mike and Alice kinda what happened. The rest of the night i was really shook up but i tried to put my best foot forward and grin and bare it. Most of the night i laughed, and I think everyone at work that night for doing so. IT was a needed relief. When i had to drive home i have never EVER driven so slow in my life. I honestly didnt want to drive home but i didnt want to risk my mom comming to get me. even though she said she was going to i told her no.
I saw my life flash before my eyes, and one onf the worst this was the fact that it wasnt very long. When iwas spinning i wasnt scared, looking back on ti i was eeirly calm and relaxed. Even when i slammed into the gaurd rail it felt lie bumper cars. I wasnt trown about my car, it was almost as if i was being held in place in my seat. when i hit the gaurd rail i didnt move at all. my mom says my dad was watching over me. And in fout years since he died i never felt him, if you know what i mean. I never felt his presence. Until hyesterday. I felt as if he placed his hand over my body and kept me in place making sure nothing happened to me, making sure i would be ther for mom and i woudl live out my life.
And for once in a long time, i felt a weird feeling of being safe. I cant explain it. But i have never felt more safe in my life.
<3