Were going to die like this you know. miserable and old.
Can you say "fucking mess"?
I love how thats how I describe myself now.
What happened to me?
I was so happy.
all of the time.
And then in the matter of months,
HERE I AM.
A FUCKING DISASTER!
Everything in my life is a wreck.
I cant stand this.
I even cat stand to be living with my family anylonger.
My dad is the only one that I love.
I swear.
Well, no.
But lately thats how it seems.
Me and Anthony fought today.
It was the first time since, I dont even remember when.
My arm still hurts from where he punched me.
But thats okay
because I bet his face is probably numb.
I just want my dad to come home so I can go upstairs without fighting with someone.
I have Tina
and I always will
I know I always will
because she told me
and even if she never did
I would know.
Because she loves me.
No matter what stupid things i do.
I just got off the phone with Rich.
Sometimes I feel as if were not even friends
but he always reminds me that he cares.
And that is something that I need.
Wow, I cant beleive I just wrote all of this shit
knowing how I used to be.
I think I dont care, but I'm not sure.
Ive been thinking about it. About people opinions of me.
Its always something that Ive cared about SO much.
But now I dont even think I do.
No
I dont care.
I really dont.
I just hope that I always feel this way about it.
because I'm going to have to now that everyone thinks they know me.
G-d.
Having Tina is something that I will never take for granted.
Not everyone gets someone like her
but I did
and I'm lucky.
and I know it.
blee blee blee
Everyone is upstairs fighting
and I'm down here hiding from them.
I hate them sometimes.
but thats my family I'm talking about.
I probably shouldnt say that.
But I just did.
I love how thats how I describe myself now.
What happened to me?
I was so happy.
all of the time.
And then in the matter of months,
HERE I AM.
A FUCKING DISASTER!
Everything in my life is a wreck.
I cant stand this.
I even cat stand to be living with my family anylonger.
My dad is the only one that I love.
I swear.
Well, no.
But lately thats how it seems.
Me and Anthony fought today.
It was the first time since, I dont even remember when.
My arm still hurts from where he punched me.
But thats okay
because I bet his face is probably numb.
I just want my dad to come home so I can go upstairs without fighting with someone.
I have Tina
and I always will
I know I always will
because she told me
and even if she never did
I would know.
Because she loves me.
No matter what stupid things i do.
I just got off the phone with Rich.
Sometimes I feel as if were not even friends
but he always reminds me that he cares.
And that is something that I need.
Wow, I cant beleive I just wrote all of this shit
knowing how I used to be.
I think I dont care, but I'm not sure.
Ive been thinking about it. About people opinions of me.
Its always something that Ive cared about SO much.
But now I dont even think I do.
No
I dont care.
I really dont.
I just hope that I always feel this way about it.
because I'm going to have to now that everyone thinks they know me.
G-d.
Having Tina is something that I will never take for granted.
Not everyone gets someone like her
but I did
and I'm lucky.
and I know it.
blee blee blee
Everyone is upstairs fighting
and I'm down here hiding from them.
I hate them sometimes.
but thats my family I'm talking about.
I probably shouldnt say that.
But I just did.