this is my chance to tell you everything
damn it, everything I've tried to do over the last few days has been for some reason extremely difficult and frustrating. I can't accomplish anything without having problems come up that I really have no idea how to handle. I can't finish building my bed because I can't manage to screw in the screws without the bed moving and then the wood either cracking or the screw not going in straight. I slept through my French class this morning because my alarm didn't go off. I spent 45 minutes in the bookstore looking for the last stupid textbook because they decided not to group this particular book by professor and course, but just kinda throw them on a shelf somewhere. All just this morning.
and that doesn't even cover all the social bullshit.
i don't even really feel motivated to keep trying, because nothing is working right. I kinda just want to lay down and sleep and hope that I wake up tomorrow and everything will work the first time i try to do it.
My mom's going on about how "this is why you need medicine" and that's not it at all. I wish I could just tell her "look, you try going a week where nothing you need to do gets done because something goes wrong every step of the way, then come back and tell me you're upset because you need medicine, not because of everything that's happened."
I can't deal with this. I don't even know.
and that doesn't even cover all the social bullshit.
i don't even really feel motivated to keep trying, because nothing is working right. I kinda just want to lay down and sleep and hope that I wake up tomorrow and everything will work the first time i try to do it.
My mom's going on about how "this is why you need medicine" and that's not it at all. I wish I could just tell her "look, you try going a week where nothing you need to do gets done because something goes wrong every step of the way, then come back and tell me you're upset because you need medicine, not because of everything that's happened."
I can't deal with this. I don't even know.