America - Oh my mum... why is she is like this?
I am writing this from the computer at the hosue of my boyfriend - so, I currenly am in Houston, Texas, United States from America, when I usually am located in Germany.
Greetings to everyone who reads this blog entry!
I don't really know what to write, and wish I could just upload some photos I took for everyone else here to see (which would be just photos of some general sightseeing thing around here, like the NASA space center that I visited too), but my mobile won't let me to load the photos I took to the computer here without the right software installed, so I will just add this later on in another entry. What to say? I am returning this Sunday, and will arrive Monday morning, and am currently baking a cake for my boyfriend's birthday today, worrying a bit about what my mother would say to me upon my return. Because I came here against her will entirely - she would have done ANYTHING to stop me from coming to America, which is why I kept my plans secret for over 4 months, in secret obtaining the necessary visa and plane tickets and then of course fly away while my mother took a vacation in Poland. I wonder how I was able to keep it all secret at all, because all she had to do to know about my plans was there on the internet to read. All she had to do was to watch my DeviantArt front page with the journal on the right side, and she would have known.
It is not that I don't understand that she is worried I might come back pregnant - but I am quite offended she thinks I cannot "control" myself and that she thinks that I am obviously so stupid to ruin my life by coming back pregnant while I am supposed to finish my studies in Biology and finally obtaining my Bachelor of Science degree which is one of my current priorities in my life.
What am I to think about my mother, who is worried that upon my return I am pregnant and already married to my boyfriend? Heck, she even thinks that my boyfriend's mother is sending out "marriage invitations" already just because she feels like wanting to write a small greeting to my grandmother (my mother's mum) to learn some polish on the side! What is so wrong with that?! It is just a greeting postcard, for F*ck's sake! I am not getting married just yet and am not pregnant and still a virgin, so what is there to worry about?? Besides, if I want to come to America again, I will have to earn 1000 Euro again somehow, and this will take a while considering that the first time I needed 5 years and over 200 self-made knitted plushies to reach this goal, so it is not that I will be able to "run away" again the next day. UNLESS I get a real job of course.
Sometimes I just do not understand the woman who brought me into this world. I just know that I learned patience from an early age on from her which comes in handy in my life. It is also not that I hadn't any heavy makeout-sessions while I was alone with my love. But I am certain we haven't stripped each other naked at first sight. Instead, we had Ju-Jitsu classes together, went along the beach at sundown, went to the cinema... just things a usual couple does and which I cannot have whenever I want to. I have to wait for years to be able to just do the normal things with my boyfriend - which is the main downside of a long-distance relationship. But once I am able to do so, I will enjoy and cherish it all the more. All of what I have seen and experienced here, every single second... was the best time I had in my life. I have gotten to know the people my boyfriend knows, and seen the world how he sees it, and it made us grow closer too. I have gotten to know his family, and his sisters have become my sisters in a way, his mother has become something like a mother to me too. I wish my own mum would be as friendly and understandable as her. Also I consider myself a lucky girl. How many females can say the mum of their boyfriend actually likes them? Exactly!
I just wonder now how Life will go on.... I will come back again, see my brother again, whom I love so much that I cannot imagine to live without him in the future... I will have to learn to live without seeing my boyfriend or be able to kiss him... but I will endure it, until one day... I will be ready to live with him, build up an own home with him. Until then, I will keep all those moments in my heart, silently wishing that all places I know would only be a few kilometres apart and not around half the globe.
Greetings to everyone who reads this blog entry!
I don't really know what to write, and wish I could just upload some photos I took for everyone else here to see (which would be just photos of some general sightseeing thing around here, like the NASA space center that I visited too), but my mobile won't let me to load the photos I took to the computer here without the right software installed, so I will just add this later on in another entry. What to say? I am returning this Sunday, and will arrive Monday morning, and am currently baking a cake for my boyfriend's birthday today, worrying a bit about what my mother would say to me upon my return. Because I came here against her will entirely - she would have done ANYTHING to stop me from coming to America, which is why I kept my plans secret for over 4 months, in secret obtaining the necessary visa and plane tickets and then of course fly away while my mother took a vacation in Poland. I wonder how I was able to keep it all secret at all, because all she had to do to know about my plans was there on the internet to read. All she had to do was to watch my DeviantArt front page with the journal on the right side, and she would have known.
It is not that I don't understand that she is worried I might come back pregnant - but I am quite offended she thinks I cannot "control" myself and that she thinks that I am obviously so stupid to ruin my life by coming back pregnant while I am supposed to finish my studies in Biology and finally obtaining my Bachelor of Science degree which is one of my current priorities in my life.
What am I to think about my mother, who is worried that upon my return I am pregnant and already married to my boyfriend? Heck, she even thinks that my boyfriend's mother is sending out "marriage invitations" already just because she feels like wanting to write a small greeting to my grandmother (my mother's mum) to learn some polish on the side! What is so wrong with that?! It is just a greeting postcard, for F*ck's sake! I am not getting married just yet and am not pregnant and still a virgin, so what is there to worry about?? Besides, if I want to come to America again, I will have to earn 1000 Euro again somehow, and this will take a while considering that the first time I needed 5 years and over 200 self-made knitted plushies to reach this goal, so it is not that I will be able to "run away" again the next day. UNLESS I get a real job of course.
Sometimes I just do not understand the woman who brought me into this world. I just know that I learned patience from an early age on from her which comes in handy in my life. It is also not that I hadn't any heavy makeout-sessions while I was alone with my love. But I am certain we haven't stripped each other naked at first sight. Instead, we had Ju-Jitsu classes together, went along the beach at sundown, went to the cinema... just things a usual couple does and which I cannot have whenever I want to. I have to wait for years to be able to just do the normal things with my boyfriend - which is the main downside of a long-distance relationship. But once I am able to do so, I will enjoy and cherish it all the more. All of what I have seen and experienced here, every single second... was the best time I had in my life. I have gotten to know the people my boyfriend knows, and seen the world how he sees it, and it made us grow closer too. I have gotten to know his family, and his sisters have become my sisters in a way, his mother has become something like a mother to me too. I wish my own mum would be as friendly and understandable as her. Also I consider myself a lucky girl. How many females can say the mum of their boyfriend actually likes them? Exactly!
I just wonder now how Life will go on.... I will come back again, see my brother again, whom I love so much that I cannot imagine to live without him in the future... I will have to learn to live without seeing my boyfriend or be able to kiss him... but I will endure it, until one day... I will be ready to live with him, build up an own home with him. Until then, I will keep all those moments in my heart, silently wishing that all places I know would only be a few kilometres apart and not around half the globe.