what a feelin'...
I thought that this weekend would be good. It really wasn't.
I did PSAT's. That just sucked. I called people. They didn't answer. For one reason or another.
So I went home, soaking wet and morose. I fell asleep for a while. When I woke up, I looked like complete crap. So I took a shower. He called during that, and I felt a bit better hearing his voicemail. He wanted to make sure I was having a good day. He's such a funny/sad sophomore. I needed the call though. Reality check. After listening to it, I realized how late I was for Jenny's birthday party. I immediately left, with the present, some sleepover stuff and the laptop. I met up with Olivia V (yay) and Abby at the party. I also got a really awesome hug from John. But they had to leave, so we had the rest of the party, that night/this morning with just Louie, Me, Jenny, Amanda, Sarah, Catherine and Jenny. Emily never came...
But it was a good party.
I got home to my term grades sitting on the kitchen table.
Terrifying.
My teachers like me well enough I suppose. I didn't have any teachers that didn't like me. I hate thinking that if I was taking classes at CCHS, I'd be doing better, grade-wise. Frustrating. But this is what I signed up for.
I also got something from Sherry. At Acadia Institute of Oceanography. I can't afford to pay my way there this summer. But she sent me something, an invite to attend again, coz she knew I loved it, and marine science was going to be my major-ish. I dunno. I wish that I was rich. Not for material crap like rich people usually obsess over. But to go to seminars at a sciencecamp. Yes. I'm spoiled. But at least I want something educational. :-/
I'm sad. I don't want to be a pushover about it, like I always am. But I can't help but try to ignore what it is that's bothering me. Not cool.
I need a hug. A big one.
*sniffle*
I did PSAT's. That just sucked. I called people. They didn't answer. For one reason or another.
So I went home, soaking wet and morose. I fell asleep for a while. When I woke up, I looked like complete crap. So I took a shower. He called during that, and I felt a bit better hearing his voicemail. He wanted to make sure I was having a good day. He's such a funny/sad sophomore. I needed the call though. Reality check. After listening to it, I realized how late I was for Jenny's birthday party. I immediately left, with the present, some sleepover stuff and the laptop. I met up with Olivia V (yay) and Abby at the party. I also got a really awesome hug from John. But they had to leave, so we had the rest of the party, that night/this morning with just Louie, Me, Jenny, Amanda, Sarah, Catherine and Jenny. Emily never came...
But it was a good party.
I got home to my term grades sitting on the kitchen table.
Terrifying.
My teachers like me well enough I suppose. I didn't have any teachers that didn't like me. I hate thinking that if I was taking classes at CCHS, I'd be doing better, grade-wise. Frustrating. But this is what I signed up for.
I also got something from Sherry. At Acadia Institute of Oceanography. I can't afford to pay my way there this summer. But she sent me something, an invite to attend again, coz she knew I loved it, and marine science was going to be my major-ish. I dunno. I wish that I was rich. Not for material crap like rich people usually obsess over. But to go to seminars at a sciencecamp. Yes. I'm spoiled. But at least I want something educational. :-/
I'm sad. I don't want to be a pushover about it, like I always am. But I can't help but try to ignore what it is that's bothering me. Not cool.
I need a hug. A big one.
*sniffle*